04/12/09

TAPU CALLED FROM SALEM AT 05 EVENING SAYING SHE IS SEEK .
IT SEEMS WHILE COMING BY BUS FROM BANGALORE TO SALEM SHE VOMITED MANY A TIMES,FROM
SALEM TO TIRUPUR EITHER SHE HAS TO COME BY BUS OR BY TRAIN,TO GET A TRAIN SHE HAS
TO WAIT MORE THAN TWO HOURS AS TRAIN IS AROUND 7.30.
STILL IT IS OK,
COMING BY BUS IS HORRIBLE.
DON'T KNOW WHEN SHE WILL REACH TIRUPUR.

02/12/09

HAD A TALK WITH GUNI THIS MORNING,SHE IS BUSY WITH HER STUDY'S,TRYING TOO HEAD.
I DON'T KNOW WHY LUCK IS NOT FAVORING HER!
ALL BELLOW AVERAGE GIRLS ARE DOING SO WELL AS FAR AS FINANCIAL MATTER IS CONCERNED.
DON'T KNOW WHY IT SO.
TIMES GETS FRUSTRATED BUT WHO WILL CARE OR SEE THAT.
TAPU IS IN BANGALORE,ARRANGING TO SEND MONEY TO GUNI,HAVE SPOKEN TO HER ON NUMER
OF OCCASIONS TODAY.
POOR LADY,RUNNING POST TO PEELER.
I COULD NOT DO ANY THING FOR HER,IF GOD DOES.

30/11/09

TO DAY IS VERY SAD.
TAPU LEFT THIS MORNING FOR BANGALORE TO SELL HER BALANCE ORNAMENTS AS GUNI
NEED MONEY FOR HER EXPENSES.
FEAR IS GRIPING AS WE LEFT NOTHING TO PROTECT OURSELVES,
EVERYTHING HAS GONE.
OTHER WOMEN WOULD NEVER HAVE PARTED WITH JEWELS AS THIS IS THEIR PRIDE.
SHE DOES NOT SAY ANYTHING BUT I UNDERSTOOD SHE IS CRYING FROM IN SIDE, I AM NOT IN
POSITION TO PROTECT HER,SUCH A ILL FATED PERSON I AM.
I AM A SPECTATOR.
SOME TIME I THINK IT IS TOO MUCH.
WE ARE PUSHING OURSELVES TO A EXTREME POINT,IT IS LIKE GAMBLING.
DON'T KNOW WHAT STORED FOR TWO OF US.

26/11/09

HAPPINESS DOES NOT LAST LONG FOR US NOW A DAYS,WHEN EVER THERE IS A RAY OF LIGHT
MIND FEAR'S DOUBTING IT'S LONGEVITY.
THIS MORNING SOW GUNI IS HAPPY,I AM HAPPY TOO,THAT IS WHAT IS REQUIRED AT THIS
POINT OF LIFE, OUR TOTAL HAPPINESS IS SURROUNDED BY HER SUCCESS AND ACHIEVEMENTS.
SHE IS TRYING HARD TO GET ASSOCIATED WITH PROFESSORS WHO CAN HELP HER TO GET IN
TO P. H D.COURSE.
HER HARD WORK SHOULD PAY.
TOLD GUNI ABOUT OUR PLAN TO GO TO CALCUTTA.
SHE ENCOURAGED.
I AM NOT VERY HAPPY TO GO AS WILL NOT BE ABLE TO GIVE ANY FINANCIAL ASSISTENCE
TO MY MOTHER,WHICH IS VERY ESSENTIAL I KNOW BUT NOT IN A POSITION TO DO SO,
HAVE TO GO AS SHE HAS GONE OLD AND I MUST SEE HER.
THIS IS MY DUTY.
BOOKED TICKET FOR ME AND TAPU FROM BANGALORE TO HOWRAH BY YASHWANTHPUR HOWRAH EXPRESS ON 06/12/09.
TICKETS ARE WAIT LISTED, HOPING TO GET CONFIRMED AT 11TH HOUR.

19/11/09

THIS MORNING HAD A TALK WITH GUNI.
I CAN UNDERSTAND SHE IS TRYING HER LABEL BEST TO REDUCE MY BURDEN AND IN THAT PROCESS
WHAT NOT SHE IS DOING WITHOUT MUCH RESULT,DESTINY IS SO IMPOTENT TO HUMAN'S LIFE.
POOR GIRL,TIME HAS TAKEN AWAY HER YOUTHFUL SMILE.
GOD IS SO POWERFUL,DON'T HAVE GUTS TO PROTEST AGAINST DECISIONS BUT BEING A FATHER
CAN'T ACCEPT.
GIRLS BELLOW PER ARE SO LUCKY,THEY ARE GETTING JOBS,
INSPITE OF HER ALL QUALITY AND ABILITY SHE IS SUFFERING..............

18/11/09

NOTHING IS COMING UP.
it's not that i am throwing my hands in air.
if god permits we have 3 options,1)my property should get sold.2)guni should get a
job.3)i should get a decent job.
if any one works every thing should fall in line.
NOTHING IS COMING UP.
SO MUCH TENSION,EVERY MORNING ALL 3 OF US HOPING SOME CHANGE WILL TAKE PLACE,OUR MISERY'S WILL BE OVER BUT NOTHING IS TAKING PLACE.
HOW LONG THIS SUFFERING WILL CONTINUE.

18/11/09