12 / 03 /10

SOME TIMES I FILL WE ( ME AND TAPU ) ARE TOTALLY MISMATCH TO TODAY'S WORLD.
PEOPLE ARE CHANGING THEIR COLOR SO FIRST THAT IT IS ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE TO MATCH.
WHEN I THINK MADHAB,SAJAL,SUBHASH,MY BROTHERS,TAPU'S SISTERS ,ALL ARE
DEFERMENT FROM US,AHEAD OF TIME,FOR THAT MATTER SHIBU IS ALSO NOT EXCEPTIONAL BUT HE IS
BETTER THAN THESE ALL,THE PROBLEM WITH THIS GUY IS HE TRY'S TO PRETEND SOMETHING
WHICH HE IS NOT,CAREFUL OBSERVATION IS ENOUGH TO UNDERSTAND HIM,BUT OTHERS ARE NOT.

MADHAB-:A GENUINELY THIRD CLASS FELLOW.
I NEVER THOUGHT I WILL PATCH UP WITH HIM BUT CONSIDERING SOCIAL SYSTEM TRIED TO
IGNORE PAST AND WAS LOOKING FOR A SIMPLE PLATFORM WHERE IN WE CAN SAY AT LEAST
HALLOW ,UNFORTUNATELY MY THAT WISH ALSO WENT TO PITS.
ONCE HIS MOTHER IN LOW AND HE MADE SUCH HORRIBLE COMMENTS ABOUT ME I WAS SHOCKED,
FAILED TO UNDERSTAND WHO AUTHORIZED THEM TO DO SO,TEST WAS SO BITTER THAT DESIDED
NO TO SEE THEIR FACE.

SUBHASH-: I HAD A HIGH REGARDS FOR HIM,AT ONE POINT HIS BROTHER'S USED TO CALL HIM GODFATHER
BUT WITH TIME THAT COLOR FADED,THEY WERE INDULGED IN COCK FIGHTING BUT FOR ME THAT IS NOT THE ISSUE.
I MUST CONFESS NEARLY ONE YEAR HIS PARENTS (MY AUNT)GAVE ME SHELTER DURING MY LEEN
PERIOD WHEN I WAS FORCED LEAVE HOUSE(BIRATI)DUE TO POLITICAL UNREST,I WAS A CPM SUPPORTER HENCE WHEN CONGRESS CAME IN TO POWER THEY THRASHED OUT ALL ACTIVE CPM
ACTIVIST.
POSSIBLE THAT FAVOR ALWAYS RUNS THROUGH THEIR MIND,AND MIGHT BE THINKING THAT I HAVE NOT PAID THAT DUE YET.
GOD KNOWS,I HAVE NOT FORGOTTEN AS YET,ALWAYS I SHALL REMEMBER THAT FAVOR AND IF
GOD GIVES ME AN OPPORTUNITY DEFINITELY I WILL STAND FOR THEIR ASSISTANCE IN CASE REQUIRED ANY,I FULLY AGREE THAT I CAN'T GIVE BACK THOSE DAYS AT ANY COST.
SUBHASH MUST BE KEEPING THOSE DAYS IN MIND AND CURSING ME.
DURING ITC PERIOD THOUGHT I WILL DO SOMETHING LATER BUT DID NOT KNOW IN LIFE NOTHING IS SURE.
ONCE I WAS ESTABLISHING MYSELF I FELT HE WAS JEALOUS,POSSIBLE HIS PRIDE WAS HEART BECAUSE OUT OF THE BLUE A PERSON LIKE ME SOMEWHAT ESTABLISHED ,THOSE DAYS I WAS WORKING WITH I.T.C AND LIKE HIM MANY WARE FINDING IT DIFFICULT TO DIGEST . HE NEVER SPEAKS TO ME ON STRAIGHT FACE.
I STRONGLY BE LIVE HE IS NOT WELL WISHER OF MINE.

SAJAL-:REALLY THERE WERE NOT MUCH CONTACT,HE CAME TO BANGALORE TO ADMIT HIS SON IN
A COLLAGE AND AT THAT POINT HE BECAME CLOSER TO US BECAUSE OF HIS OWN INTEREST.
THOUGH MYSELF AND TAPU UNDERSTOOD HIS INTENTION BUT IT WAS NOT POSSIBLE TO TURN
OUR FACE,MORE OVER IN A SOCIETY SOME SORT OF ADJUSTMENT IS REQUIRED AND THAT LOGIC
BOUGHT US SOME WHAT CLOSER BUT EVERYTHING WENT IN VAIN.
I WAS IN KARUR AT THAT POINT OF TIME,AND HIS SON WHO WAS STAYING AT MY HOUSE MAD A SITUATION WHICH WAS UNPLEASANT AND UNCALLED FOR.
SAJAL WAS NEVER INTERESTED TO KNOW WHAT ACTUALLY WENT WRONG.
THE RELATION GOT STAINED.

MY GREAT BROTHERS : TILL DATE I COULD NOT UNDERSTAND WHAT ARE THE GRIEVANCES THEY HAVE HAD AGAINST ME,
MY FATHER WAS VERY UPSET WITH ME AND THERE WERE VALID REASONS ALSO.
I COULD NOT FULFILL HIS WISH MORE OVER LED A VERY IN DISCIPLINED LIFE DURING SCHOOL
AND COLLEGE DAYS.
I HAVE NOTHING TO SAY ABOUT THAT BUT I TOO HAD LOTS OF COMPLAIN AGAINST HIM,AND THAT
IS WHY WE COULD NOT COME CLOSER EVER EXCEPT DURING LAST FEW MONTHS OF HIS LIFE,WHEN HE FALL SEEK AND HOSPITALIZED. ABOUT MY BROTHERS
GOD KNOWS WHAT WRONG I DID, NEVER TRIED TO CHEAT THEM,ALWAYS DONE MY BEST WITH IN MY CAPACITY.
FROM 1978 EVERY MONTH SUPPORTED FINANCIALLY TILL 1985 AFTER MARRIAGE IT WAS NOT POSSIBLE TO CONTINUE THE SYSTEM.CONSTRUCTED A ROOM ON THE FIRST FLOOR,TAKEN CARE OF FATHER'S MEDICAL EXPENSES,TIME TO TIME SPENT WHEN EVER POSSIBLE,
POSSIBLE IF I WOULD NOT HAVE MARRIED I COULD HAVE DONE MORE .
IN LIFE ONE UNFORTUNATE THING I DID BECAUSE OF EMOTION THAT I MARRIED TO A FAMILY
WHO HAD NOTHING AND EVENTUALLY I HAD TO SUPPORT THEM AFTER MY MARRIAGE IN MANY WAYS.
DOLLAR,DADDY AND JHUMUR WERE DIRECTLY BENEFITED THROUGH ME,EXCEPT KHOKON ,AFTER
HIS MARRIAGE HIS WIFE ALWAYS WENT AGAINST ME AND TRIED TO HARM US.
WE STAYED AWAY FROM THEM TILL DATE.
MY BROTHERS ARE NOT HAPPY WITH MY ACT..DON'T KNOW WHY,WHAT IS THEIR EXPECTATION.

MY SISTER IN LOWS:
HOLE BIRATI KNOW MY CONTRIBUTION TOWARDS THEM.THERE IS NO POINT TO GO ON DETAIL AS THAT WILL BE ABSOLUTELY NONSENSE FROM OUR PART ,ONLY THING HARTS ME TO DAY IS
THEY HAVE TURNED THEIR FACE IN OUR CRISIS EVEN CRITICIZES FOR OUR ILL FATE
AND FOR UNNECESSARY EXPENSES WITH OUT REALIZING BECAUSE OF MY STUPIDITY THEY GOT MARRIED AND THEIR MOTHER LEAVING IN A REASONABLE HOUSE.
EVEN AFTER THEIR MARRIAGE TIME TO TIME TRIED TO SUPPORT THEM IN BEST POSSIBLE MANNER.