This morning Guni left for Bangalore by train.
Tapu went to r/station to send off, according to her plan she will be returning Monday night.
Honesty neither Tapu nor me happy for this trip as where she will be staying is undecided but
mostly in Siddhartha's place !
I fully agree it is almost impossible to stay in Tirupur as there is no social life and an atmosphere
which one can enjoy,we are leaving here for our livelihood.
God is kind enough to give an opportunity to earn our bread in this desert like place(according to us).
Guni have changed a lot,must be for her good,she takes her own decisions.
It is difficult to judge as situation and time and change more over my state of condition.
Practically I could do nothing for her to fill her happy,what ever she is doing doing on her own,on the contrary she is supporting to manage in many issues to solve financially.
Now she fills our relation is hanging on money,she sounded also but is it not a naked truth!!
Now a days almost all issues are related with money as due to my financial position many a things remains unsolved and getting multiplied hence when ever I try to pull one thread it starts
opening up issues one after another and most of them related to financial affair and that makes her upset.
She is still young and to my believe she will realize with her age and experiences what lower middle class families go through and in what situation we are in.
There is no doubt by the grace of BABA she will lift herself from this class status and place in a
position where in day to day life money matter not been discussed on regular basis.
Thursday, July 28, 2011
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
MY GUNI,
Last night while she was talking over phone she was crying...
I don't know why for me it is very easy to understand her pulse, can read her well.
understood there is something wrong with Aditya.
Guni told me once she had soft corner for Aditya and he approached her to marry
but guni did not agree as a responsible child she preferred to stand for her parents and with heavy heart denied the proposal and eventually that guy got married but unfortunately that marriage ended with a divorce.
This fact also Guni bought to my notice and told they are in contact as good friends
but from my bottom of my heart I knew he will knock the door and that's happened
last night and Guni could not place him before her carrier and future.
Rightly she is looking for her security in life,her father is a cropper and anything goes wrong with marriage it will be a disouster as no one knows real reason why and for what he got divorced.
According to me she has taken a right decision though I gave her a free hand to chose what she fill good for her.
I felt very bad last night for my child and could not sleep properly.
I know her pain, sorrow and determination,I know what she has gone through
to establish her,though it is not completed and not accomplished but her steps towards that direction is flawless till date.
wish her all the success not because I am her father but as an individual who sow her so closely .
Baba should bless her to achieve her what she want the most.
I don't know why for me it is very easy to understand her pulse, can read her well.
understood there is something wrong with Aditya.
Guni told me once she had soft corner for Aditya and he approached her to marry
but guni did not agree as a responsible child she preferred to stand for her parents and with heavy heart denied the proposal and eventually that guy got married but unfortunately that marriage ended with a divorce.
This fact also Guni bought to my notice and told they are in contact as good friends
but from my bottom of my heart I knew he will knock the door and that's happened
last night and Guni could not place him before her carrier and future.
Rightly she is looking for her security in life,her father is a cropper and anything goes wrong with marriage it will be a disouster as no one knows real reason why and for what he got divorced.
According to me she has taken a right decision though I gave her a free hand to chose what she fill good for her.
I felt very bad last night for my child and could not sleep properly.
I know her pain, sorrow and determination,I know what she has gone through
to establish her,though it is not completed and not accomplished but her steps towards that direction is flawless till date.
wish her all the success not because I am her father but as an individual who sow her so closely .
Baba should bless her to achieve her what she want the most.
HIGH FASHIONS IN BAD SHAPE
Situation is very bad with High Fashions,no orders in hand as on date,at one stroke
21 orders got cancelled as buyers lost confidence since we were not truthful and sincere towards our commitments.
things are realty really bad,it's sinking ,financially looks like bankrupt.
Because of insufficient funds always salaries get delayed but this month employes
are getting payment only today 20/07,god only knows what will happen next month.
Guni is in Bangalore now,she went Chennai first and from their to Bangalore and expected in tirupur tomorrow.
Thanks god,She is away otherwise what I would have done without money can't think.
she is leaving for USA on 10th of August.
21 orders got cancelled as buyers lost confidence since we were not truthful and sincere towards our commitments.
things are realty really bad,it's sinking ,financially looks like bankrupt.
Because of insufficient funds always salaries get delayed but this month employes
are getting payment only today 20/07,god only knows what will happen next month.
Guni is in Bangalore now,she went Chennai first and from their to Bangalore and expected in tirupur tomorrow.
Thanks god,She is away otherwise what I would have done without money can't think.
she is leaving for USA on 10th of August.
Thursday, May 26, 2011
26/05/2011
AFTER A LONG LONG TIME AM ON BLOG,EVEN CANT REMEMBER WHEN WROTE LAST.
GUNI IS IN INDIA,CAME ON 13/05/2011,AFTER CLOSE TO TWO AND HALF YEARS!
THERE IS IS NOTHING TO HIDE - AM NOT THAT HAPPY AS SUPPOSE TO BE,FOR THE SIMPLE REASON
I CAN'T DO ANYTHING FOR HER,A PENNY-LESS PERSON/FATHER,STRUGGLING FOR SURVIVAL.
PEOPLE WILL BE SURPRISED AND ASK WHAT TYPE OF FATHER I AM!
THINGS ARE SO BAD AROUND ME THAT TIMES FILL IT IS NOT WRATH LEAVING.
TRYING TO RUNAWAY FROM LIFE AND RESPONSIBILITY! LIKE A COWARD!
YES! NO SHAME TO SAY SO,COULD NOT ACHIEVE ANY THING FOR LAST 10 LONG YEARS,NOW WHAT!
SURE I AM NOT CAPABLE OR USELESS OTHERWISE DEFINITELY SOME THING WOULD HAVE WORKED OUT,ALL IS MY FAULT,MY INABILITY TO GRAB THE RIGHT OPPORTUNITY.
NO COMPLAINT TOWARDS ANY ONE,IT IS ME WHO FAILED IN LIFE MISERABLY AS I AM INCOMPETENT AND INCAPABLE.
GUNI IS IN CALCUTTA,
RATNA'S SON HAD THREAD CEREMONY FUNCTION,TOPU WENT ALONG WITH HER MOTHER WHO CAME HEAR FOR FEW DAYS,WE SUGGESTED GUNI TO ARRIVE CALCUTTA AND ACCORDINGLY SHE CAME VIA DELHI FROM CHACAGO.
ALSO GUNI WRITING GRE EXAM FROM ALLAHABAD ON 30TH OF THIS MONTH,AS IT CLOSER TO CALCUTTA THAN TIRUPUR,THAT'S ALSO ONE REASON WE SUGGESTED HER TO ARRIVE IN CALCUTTA.
SHE PLANS TO BE IN TIRUPUR AROUND 5TH JUNE DEPENDING AVAILABILITY OF TICKET.
AM SURROUNDED WITH PROBLEMS,HIGH FASHIONS INTL WHERE AM EMPLOYED IS IN DEEP TROUBLE,MAINLY FINANCIAL,WHICH CAUSED BY POOR MANAGEMENT,BY MR.DURAI HIMSELF.
SEEMS IT'S SINKING,ALL ORDERS GETTING CANCELLED,BUYER LOST CONFIDENCE IN HIM.
THE MAIN PROBLEM IS HE GIVES ALL WRONG INFORMATION AND TELL LIES WHICH CAN'T BE COVERED OR CORRECTED TOWARDS THE END AND WITH RESULT TRUTH COMES OUT WITH UGLY FACE.
AS FAR AS I AM CONCERNED REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.
SALARY IS NOT COMING ON TIME ,NO COMMITMENTS ARE BEEN MET,HOUSE RENT,CREDILA LONE,ETC .
DON'T KNOW WHAT IS STORED FOR ME/US.
GUNI IS IN INDIA,CAME ON 13/05/2011,AFTER CLOSE TO TWO AND HALF YEARS!
THERE IS IS NOTHING TO HIDE - AM NOT THAT HAPPY AS SUPPOSE TO BE,FOR THE SIMPLE REASON
I CAN'T DO ANYTHING FOR HER,A PENNY-LESS PERSON/FATHER,STRUGGLING FOR SURVIVAL.
PEOPLE WILL BE SURPRISED AND ASK WHAT TYPE OF FATHER I AM!
THINGS ARE SO BAD AROUND ME THAT TIMES FILL IT IS NOT WRATH LEAVING.
TRYING TO RUNAWAY FROM LIFE AND RESPONSIBILITY! LIKE A COWARD!
YES! NO SHAME TO SAY SO,COULD NOT ACHIEVE ANY THING FOR LAST 10 LONG YEARS,NOW WHAT!
SURE I AM NOT CAPABLE OR USELESS OTHERWISE DEFINITELY SOME THING WOULD HAVE WORKED OUT,ALL IS MY FAULT,MY INABILITY TO GRAB THE RIGHT OPPORTUNITY.
NO COMPLAINT TOWARDS ANY ONE,IT IS ME WHO FAILED IN LIFE MISERABLY AS I AM INCOMPETENT AND INCAPABLE.
GUNI IS IN CALCUTTA,
RATNA'S SON HAD THREAD CEREMONY FUNCTION,TOPU WENT ALONG WITH HER MOTHER WHO CAME HEAR FOR FEW DAYS,WE SUGGESTED GUNI TO ARRIVE CALCUTTA AND ACCORDINGLY SHE CAME VIA DELHI FROM CHACAGO.
ALSO GUNI WRITING GRE EXAM FROM ALLAHABAD ON 30TH OF THIS MONTH,AS IT CLOSER TO CALCUTTA THAN TIRUPUR,THAT'S ALSO ONE REASON WE SUGGESTED HER TO ARRIVE IN CALCUTTA.
SHE PLANS TO BE IN TIRUPUR AROUND 5TH JUNE DEPENDING AVAILABILITY OF TICKET.
AM SURROUNDED WITH PROBLEMS,HIGH FASHIONS INTL WHERE AM EMPLOYED IS IN DEEP TROUBLE,MAINLY FINANCIAL,WHICH CAUSED BY POOR MANAGEMENT,BY MR.DURAI HIMSELF.
SEEMS IT'S SINKING,ALL ORDERS GETTING CANCELLED,BUYER LOST CONFIDENCE IN HIM.
THE MAIN PROBLEM IS HE GIVES ALL WRONG INFORMATION AND TELL LIES WHICH CAN'T BE COVERED OR CORRECTED TOWARDS THE END AND WITH RESULT TRUTH COMES OUT WITH UGLY FACE.
AS FAR AS I AM CONCERNED REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.
SALARY IS NOT COMING ON TIME ,NO COMMITMENTS ARE BEEN MET,HOUSE RENT,CREDILA LONE,ETC .
DON'T KNOW WHAT IS STORED FOR ME/US.
Sunday, March 13, 2011
GUNI WORKING ON NIGHT SHIFTS.
HAD A TALK WITH GUNI YESTERDAY ON SKYPE AFTER QUITE SOME TIME.
SHE WAS WORKING IN NIGHT SHIFT,IT APPEARS VERY OFTEN SHE IS WORKING ON NIGHTS,SHE SAYS MONY IS MORE AND ALSO SAYS SHE LIKES IT AS PAYMENT IS MORE,SHE HAS ANOTHER PRETEXT THAT IS WORKING IN NIGHTS HELPS HER TO REDUCE WAIGHT.
IT'S REALY FUNNY,UNHEARD OFF.
NOW A DAYS I PREFER NOT TO GIVE SUGESTIONS AS THAT IS STUPIDE,DON'T HAVE ABILITY TO HELP BUT TO OFFER HOLE LOTS OF SUGETIONS IS ABSULUITLY NONSENCE.
GOONI IS COMFORTABLE TO SPEAK WITH TAPU AS IT IS VERY EASY TO CONVINCE HER AND BRING HER UNDER THE UMBRELA WITH MINIMUM IMOTIONSAL TOUCH, BUT IN MY CASE IT IS NOT SO.
SHE KNOWS IT IS NOT EASY TO CONVINCE ME,YESTERDAY I UNDERSTOOD SHE IS STRUGLING FOR MONEY AND THAT IS THE REASON OF ALL THESE NIGHT WORK YET
TRYING TO SHOW THAT SHE IS HAPPY AND COMFORTABLE TO MAKE ME HAPPY.
GOD ONLY KNOWS WHAT STORED FOR US.
TAPU'S HEALTH IS ALSO NOT WELL,HAD A TALK THIS MORNING,HAVING THROT PAIN AND SORE THROT.
SHE WAS WORKING IN NIGHT SHIFT,IT APPEARS VERY OFTEN SHE IS WORKING ON NIGHTS,SHE SAYS MONY IS MORE AND ALSO SAYS SHE LIKES IT AS PAYMENT IS MORE,SHE HAS ANOTHER PRETEXT THAT IS WORKING IN NIGHTS HELPS HER TO REDUCE WAIGHT.
IT'S REALY FUNNY,UNHEARD OFF.
NOW A DAYS I PREFER NOT TO GIVE SUGESTIONS AS THAT IS STUPIDE,DON'T HAVE ABILITY TO HELP BUT TO OFFER HOLE LOTS OF SUGETIONS IS ABSULUITLY NONSENCE.
GOONI IS COMFORTABLE TO SPEAK WITH TAPU AS IT IS VERY EASY TO CONVINCE HER AND BRING HER UNDER THE UMBRELA WITH MINIMUM IMOTIONSAL TOUCH, BUT IN MY CASE IT IS NOT SO.
SHE KNOWS IT IS NOT EASY TO CONVINCE ME,YESTERDAY I UNDERSTOOD SHE IS STRUGLING FOR MONEY AND THAT IS THE REASON OF ALL THESE NIGHT WORK YET
TRYING TO SHOW THAT SHE IS HAPPY AND COMFORTABLE TO MAKE ME HAPPY.
GOD ONLY KNOWS WHAT STORED FOR US.
TAPU'S HEALTH IS ALSO NOT WELL,HAD A TALK THIS MORNING,HAVING THROT PAIN AND SORE THROT.
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
LIFE IS SAME
LIFE IS SAME FOR YEARS.
IT IS LIKE OLD HOUSE,COLOR IS PEALING BECAUSE OF LACK OF MAINTENANCE.
SAME OLD STORY OF STRUGGLING FOR SURVIVAL,EVERY MORNING I OPEN MY EYES WITH PAIN OF UNSUCCESSFUL AND HELPLESSNESS.
GUNI IS ALSO TOO MUCH DISTURBED,POOR CHILD NOT GETTING A JOB,WORKING IN GAS STATION!
THAT TOO IN NIGHT SHIFT!JUST FOR SURVIVAL,BEING A FATHER PAIN IS INEXPRESSIBLE.
EVERYONE ENJOYED NEW YEAR,BUT WE DIDN'T.
DON'T KNOW WHEN THIS MISERY WILL BE OVER.
ALMOST STOP ED WRITING ON BLOG AS THERE IS NOTHING TO WRITE...
IT IS LIKE OLD HOUSE,COLOR IS PEALING BECAUSE OF LACK OF MAINTENANCE.
SAME OLD STORY OF STRUGGLING FOR SURVIVAL,EVERY MORNING I OPEN MY EYES WITH PAIN OF UNSUCCESSFUL AND HELPLESSNESS.
GUNI IS ALSO TOO MUCH DISTURBED,POOR CHILD NOT GETTING A JOB,WORKING IN GAS STATION!
THAT TOO IN NIGHT SHIFT!JUST FOR SURVIVAL,BEING A FATHER PAIN IS INEXPRESSIBLE.
EVERYONE ENJOYED NEW YEAR,BUT WE DIDN'T.
DON'T KNOW WHEN THIS MISERY WILL BE OVER.
ALMOST STOP ED WRITING ON BLOG AS THERE IS NOTHING TO WRITE...
Saturday, December 18, 2010
MY MOTHER IS NO MORE
NOTHING HAVE CHANGED IN THIS WORLD,LIFE IS NORMAL AS USUAL ,NONE OF THE ACTIVITY'S OF NATURE HAVE GONE WRONG,ONLY SHE IS NOT THERE.
MY MOTHER IS NO MORE.
SHE BREATHED HER LAST ON 27TH SEPT MONDAY 5.30 EVENING (AS PER MEDICAL REPORT).
I AM UPSET NOT BECAUSE OF HER DEATH SINCE ONE HAS TO GO AS AND WHEN CALL COMES AND THAT TRUTH IS ACCEPTABLE ALL OVER THE GLOBE BUT AM TERRIBLY DISTURBED AND SADDEN THE WAY SHE DYED.
TO ME SHE WAS KILLED BY DOCTORS JUST BECAUSE OF NEGLIGENCE'S AND LACK OF KNOWLEDGE ALSO FOR MONEY.
WE SONS ARE ALSO RESPONSIBLE AS WE COULD NOT OFFER HER BEST TREATMENT,COULD NOT AFFORD HER TO PUT IN A BEST HOSPITAL.
AS LONG I LIVE HER SUFFERINGS WILL BE ALWAYS IN MY MIND,SUCH PAINFUL END YET SHE NEITHER COMPLAINED NOR SPOKE A WARD.
NOW I AM ALONE ,WITHOUT A GARDIAN,WITHOUT A SHALTER,THERE IS NONE WHO WILL LOOK FOR ME IN CALCUTTA WHO WILL ASK WHEN I WILL COME...................
MY MOTHER IS NO MORE.
SHE BREATHED HER LAST ON 27TH SEPT MONDAY 5.30 EVENING (AS PER MEDICAL REPORT).
I AM UPSET NOT BECAUSE OF HER DEATH SINCE ONE HAS TO GO AS AND WHEN CALL COMES AND THAT TRUTH IS ACCEPTABLE ALL OVER THE GLOBE BUT AM TERRIBLY DISTURBED AND SADDEN THE WAY SHE DYED.
TO ME SHE WAS KILLED BY DOCTORS JUST BECAUSE OF NEGLIGENCE'S AND LACK OF KNOWLEDGE ALSO FOR MONEY.
WE SONS ARE ALSO RESPONSIBLE AS WE COULD NOT OFFER HER BEST TREATMENT,COULD NOT AFFORD HER TO PUT IN A BEST HOSPITAL.
AS LONG I LIVE HER SUFFERINGS WILL BE ALWAYS IN MY MIND,SUCH PAINFUL END YET SHE NEITHER COMPLAINED NOR SPOKE A WARD.
NOW I AM ALONE ,WITHOUT A GARDIAN,WITHOUT A SHALTER,THERE IS NONE WHO WILL LOOK FOR ME IN CALCUTTA WHO WILL ASK WHEN I WILL COME...................
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