aamar kahini

I really don't find much to talk about my Calcutta days where I spent beginning of my life,from childhood to early youth.
there were no direction,a monotonous life.
what i did,why i did,cant find any answer from with in today.
it was like a joke,I was my own boss,who had no knowledge of life and there were none who could properly
Gide with iron hands.
I have to blame myself for everything , i can't run away or hide the things,there is no point to glorify .
Some time I fill what ever happened that was destined to happen other wise such transformations in my life would
not have taken place,whatever mistakes i have committed most of them are circumstantial.
I knew my association was not good still i used to mingle with them!
At this stage to asses right or wrong does not make any seance but one thing i know for sure that i have not
caused any harm to anyone but my parents were heart very much .
They were hurt by me not being utilizing my potential, on the other hand thrown away all opportunity in
to pits.
Wasted precious time,lots of time and scope i have wasted without realizing value of it,in simple wards I have wasted my youth just like that .