Jhumur my younger brother.
Tapu was too keen that I engage him somewhere as he was unemployed for a long time.
I was not very sure as without any experience getting a good job in textile field is impossible.
As I was with ITC, had cordial relation with many exporters all over India.
I approached one of knitwear exporters in Tirupur and explained about Jhumur.
Mr.sashidharan agreed to absorb him with a condition-that is I should stay away from him
as he has to go through a taught life as a trainee.
Agreed and jhumur came to Tirupur and joined pappilon exports.
that point of time i also used to come regularly to tirupur for inspections,so there were not much
problem for him,sashidharan always used to say to leave him alone to know the hardship and that
will ultimately lead to perfection.
He was with pappilon little more than a year and became restless for a change , for a better job.
After talking to Dinesh hinduja he was appointed as quality controller in Gokal das exports,Bangalore.
I used to go Bangalore often for inspections and during my stay he used stay with me in hotels.
other wise he arranged his accommodation with one of his childhood friend who fortunately was staying with his family.
At one point going Bangalore shortened as ITC was loosing customers .
One fine morning I came to know that he has left Gokal das and joined some other company.he served there my be about 6 months ,i cant remember now who gave me the news that he left Bangalore,on checking with Calcutta i was told he went to Nepal as he got a batter job.
there were no contact with Jhumur,he used to come to Calcutta but never contacted me,naturally
I was very upset and heart.
After 4/5 years came to know that jhumur is in Calcutta and planing to go abroad.dont know what transpired
one morning tapu told jhumur wants to come to Bangalore,at that point of time I was working at Bangalore
and I had a company accommodation 2 bed room house ,though I used to stay alone as tapu and guni were
in madras because of schooling.
Simply i was not interested,and said NO.
Tapu always a easy target,one morning when i reached madras found Jhumur already arrived.
he must have convinced tapu and made arrangements.
though I was very unhappy still I had to bring him at Bangalore.
I must agree Initially from my behavior he under stood that I am not in favor of his staying in my house
but slowly things got settled.
After 3/4 months he got a job with a buying house.
He was very in disciplined , many occasions he used to come late night that too after drinks,night food either
i eat next morning or thrown.
I lost my job as the company closed due to partnership problem and was a huge set back in my personal life.
though jhumur knew I was Jobless he never spent single paisa for his lodgings and fooding.
Guni's 12 class exam was over and they shifted to Bangalore,I had to change the existing
house as I needed 3 bed room accommodation.
the house was quite big and independent.
Guni got admitted in an engineering college.
Every one including me pressurized jhumur to get married,honestly my intention was he should get married
and stay separate,unless that happens he will not leave this place as hear he gets free lodging and fooding,nither
me nor tapu will be able to ask him to leave or pay for his staying.
My father dyed after few months of suffering,because of his illness lots of money drained out from my pocket.
that was real bad time.
jhumur's marriage got fixed,first jhumur sow the girl and subsequently me tapu along with some of my relatives.
at that point of time we made 3 trips back to back to Calcutta.
marriage took place at Barrackpur .
i came with my family before and jhumur followed with his wife after a week.
they stayed 3/4 months in my house and the pattern was same-free lodging and boarding.
Realizing that it is too much and we are not happy with this arrangement
They took a house near to jhumur's office which is very far from our place.
mostly we used to talk over phone,Mitali was a smart girl, wanted us to keep distance so that she can have
hold on her husband,we did not mind but felt awkward.
any way things ware moving except my job,they used to come in 2weeks once with complain that we are
not going,we went only once as guni preferred to stay at home Sundays.
On Laxmi puja day evening when they came, it was understood that there is soothing wrong,jhumur ware
drunk and by seeing Mitali's face we understood she cried.
Mitali started complaining that Jhumur drinks regularly ,i did not pay much attention as for me it is
not new but expected him to be disciplined on his own interest.
After a week one evening he came and what he reviled was shocking.
He said Mitali is having sexual relationship with one of his friend,according to him one afternoon during lunch
time on his way sow his close friend leaving his house and on reaching his room the over all
appearance he sow which easily proved that Mitali had a sex with his friend. the description jhumur gave
I don't wish to describe as it would be improper.
Tapu and me were utterly shocked.Tapu repeatedly asked whether he is 100%sure what he claimed but answer
was yes,yet Tapu repeatedly asked jhumur to think and talk as it is matter of pride of a girl and also matter of
survival.
There after day by day things went towards bad to worse,the trust factor was so low that during outstation trip
Jhumur placed Mitali with us,she also was upset and according to her all are created to get rid of her ,though
we did not tell her the eligation implied by her husband.
Mitali was very upset with Tapu and me,she even complained that we are encouraging jhumur and that because
of our hidden interest,also she said that she asked jhumur to set her free for which she is not interested.
the day jhumur came back from tour I told him if this is the case why he is not allowing her to set free!
They started fighting and abusing each other,situation went to an extent that my naibours started objecting.
Few days later Mitali's parents arrived at Bangalore,i was summoned,after serial of meetings no result could
found as jhumur did not uttered his complains categorically but it was understood to all that the slide has began.
Her parents left after a week leaving things as subject to rectification but with multiply problems things turned
impossible,as my memory goes mitali's mother kept some roots in side jhumur's pillow and when he realized that turned ugly.one morning Mitali's father called me over phone from Calcutta and threatened me,according to him
Tapu and me is responsible for all these nonsense,he also told unless I manage to settle this issue I would be in deep
trouble,
one day Jumur called and said me that immediately he wants to send he back to Calcutta otherwise things
would be dangerous,he bookd her next day evening flight and sent,Mitali wanted to go Birati but i disagreed
and left an instruction not to attend or encourage her hence she had to go to barracpur at her parents house.
when time is bad problem comes from every corner.
Jhumur left his house and started to stay with us as before,he used to come late night after drinks.
Tapu was very uncomfortable as Guni has grown up also Mitali and her family said we are behind their split.
I told Jhumur about the complication,he was very up set and said -because of you people got married and
now i am in problem.
as if we have written his fate,anyway after 2 weeks he hired a house and left.
ultimately he blamed us for everything,there after he stayed away.
I also felt that is the best way toaccept life,Iwas told he moved to tirupur and there after Bangladesh.
Till date we are not in touch................
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Friday, October 23, 2009
WE ARE THE MOST SELFISH CREATURE IN THE EARTH.
WE ARE THE MOST SELFISH CREATURE IN THE EARTH.
We often talk about civilization,tolerance etc etc.
In reality these are all sweet words we so called intellectuals utter very often in public, which has no relevance in
our day to day life,we have closed our eyes ,we don't want to see what is right or wrong,some how have to achieve
desired goal.
Primarily our financial insecurity and social commitments are main cause of our corrector assassination,there
are other issues too but these two factors holds the key.
My own behavior some times surprises me! I was not like this even few years back.
To day I said something to Guni which bothering me now,why i am trying so heard to establish that we are
the only parents who care for their child so much! there could be many and their support to their child
might be more meaningful.
Tapu is not fit in today's world,too emotional,which has no value,at one stage people misunderstand as every
one has their own priority's and with time it is changing very first,no one to be blamed for these rapid changes.
As far as i am concerned must confess I could not lift myself above expectations,I am the same person as
before,situation made me shameless and cheap,at one point i used to maintain certain policy's which has fallen
flat and to save present situation compromising with things which i have not dreamed ever.
conscious pricking from with in but ..............
As far as Guni is concern,
As a father I should know the reality of life, otherwise on what strength relationships will stand tall!
realized , back of my mind I am banking on Guni's success, subconsciously guess have taken it as granted that
her success in my gain too.
I have started realizing I am no exception ,I am also one of those shame less creature.
I must do something to save at least this relationship so that some honer is left,
have to gain courage to lift myself in a situation where my daughter can pay respect to me .............
We often talk about civilization,tolerance etc etc.
In reality these are all sweet words we so called intellectuals utter very often in public, which has no relevance in
our day to day life,we have closed our eyes ,we don't want to see what is right or wrong,some how have to achieve
desired goal.
Primarily our financial insecurity and social commitments are main cause of our corrector assassination,there
are other issues too but these two factors holds the key.
My own behavior some times surprises me! I was not like this even few years back.
To day I said something to Guni which bothering me now,why i am trying so heard to establish that we are
the only parents who care for their child so much! there could be many and their support to their child
might be more meaningful.
Tapu is not fit in today's world,too emotional,which has no value,at one stage people misunderstand as every
one has their own priority's and with time it is changing very first,no one to be blamed for these rapid changes.
As far as i am concerned must confess I could not lift myself above expectations,I am the same person as
before,situation made me shameless and cheap,at one point i used to maintain certain policy's which has fallen
flat and to save present situation compromising with things which i have not dreamed ever.
conscious pricking from with in but ..............
As far as Guni is concern,
As a father I should know the reality of life, otherwise on what strength relationships will stand tall!
realized , back of my mind I am banking on Guni's success, subconsciously guess have taken it as granted that
her success in my gain too.
I have started realizing I am no exception ,I am also one of those shame less creature.
I must do something to save at least this relationship so that some honer is left,
have to gain courage to lift myself in a situation where my daughter can pay respect to me .............
RUMA
Life some time losses it's essence ,most of the cases we can't rise above the situation and foll in to pits , always tries to forget such happenings but Time has its own way to rule.
Time does not spare any one, we are bound to pay prices for our sin sooner or letter.
some time we comes out of it , times we can't............................
............
RUMA
............
Ruma no 3 amongst their 4 sisters
their father died in an accident when they were too young ,the last one was 3 years old and the gap between sisters
15 months to 2 years.
Since Her father was a railway employee her mother could manage to get a job with in her capacity,these 4 girls
learned to manage themselves from their childhood.
Tapu was the elder one but she was too simple ,other three were just opposite,these three used to run the hole show.
I am also from the same locality,that time Birati was too small a place,population was very less compared to days
crowd hence we knew each other some extent.
I came to Madras for livelihood, during one of my trip to Calcutta liked Tapu, proposed , after two years married.
I had a rented house at Mackies garden near thousand lights, i made it a point to stay on my
own to have my own arrangements specially food.
After marriage Tapu stepped in the same house,it was a small, one bedroom hall with attach bathroom.
It was OK for a couple of our strength.
After one and half year of my marriage my daughter came,she was born in Calcutta under my mother in lows
care.
As the company where I was working became seek,those days had huge financial crisis hence shortage of man power.
could not be present during delivery time,went to Calcutta to bring them when Guni was 6 months old.
It was very difficult for Tapu to manage three of us as from her childhood she was some what easy going type,
she was away from domestic responsibility's.
That's when Ruma came in picture.
She is a very head working girl and through about domestic affairs,with in no time she became the manager
of my family,she used to handle everything and Tapu was like a happy free bird.
Her first two trip was short,there after Madras was her home,some times she used to go to Calcutta to see her
mother and sisters.
Every one was worried that no alliance was coming forward for Ruma.
Ruma became Tapu's responsibility,she kept trying for a suitable alliance and did everything possible . finally one of her friend Gouri
came to her rescue and introduced her cousin brother who was working in an engineering farm at Hyderabad
but actually from Calcutta[ kharda].
After few meeting marriage got fixed and they were married in Birati and hole marriage expenses was borned
by Tapu,it was a big amount she spent as the arrangement was lavish.
Once marriage got fixed she turned out to be my enemy,honestly I never in my distant
dream thought of having any relationship with her after marriage, basically I am a very choosy person, that is what I am.
i preferred to stay away from her as much as possible.
Don't know why she always had a tendency to defeat us,her mission is some how to pull
us down and go on top of us in all aspect,she copy every inch of our life style
and try's to archive whatever we have .
Some times i fill this is one kind of disease,
other wise the amount of support she got from tapu,no one would have imagined to harm us but that is the life all about.
after few months of her marriage Debabrato got transferred to Delhi,because of tapu's
insistence
I visited them once during my trip to ITC Delhi,so happened Shibu also accompanied me as
he was posted there.
Ruma had her son when they were in delhi,though delivery took place at calcutta.
Debabrato got transferred to calcutta,after coming calcutta they flourished and on the other hand my down fall started.
ITC closed export division unexpectedly , after 6 months from the closer
I could manage to get a job at Bangalore but Tapu had to stay back at Madras for Guni's education,to maintain
two establishments we went virtually out of gear ,lot of curtails and sacrifices we had to under go.
we used to meet in a month once, either i used to go or they used to come.
Ruma's son has some eye problem from birth,I was told by tapu that ruma came with her family to show her son
at sankar netralaya [eye hospital],at that point of time topu could not offer any financial assistance to her because of our unstable situation as ourselves were at stake.
Ruma was very upset with Tapu,she expected her to take care her son's medical expenses,possible they also were
weak financially but tapu was more concerned about our uncertain future and what ever saving she had preferred
to preserve for rainy days.
Even now also Ruma refers that incident when ever finds an opportunity.
There is no point of degrading or criticize any one but bottom of my heart I knew Ruma always had has a
garage on tapu,always she is jealous about her.
It is me who always stood for tapu having known that she is always right.
when ever we goes to calcutta always I am forced to go her house as decency demands but every time experienced
some how she projects her well being and financial strength.
At that point of time I Joined a company in Karur.
Tapu and Guni had to stay at Bangalore because of guni's collage ,i used to go
monthly once to give money which was not sufficient,Tapu had to take up tuition's to cover short falls.
during that crisis period
Ruma came with her husband as he developed some complication with his vocal cord.
Tapu had to take them to Vellore hospital and diagnosed as Cancer.
I must say Tapu is out of the world,her heart is so big that she can die for others.during our stay at madras
many people came and stayed in my house for their treatment in Madras,Always her door was open for needy's.
Tapu used to run virtually every day to Vellor hospital with Debabrata and Ruma for communication
with doctors as they were not fluent in English, even other wise,
this process was on more than a month.
Tapu is a great devotee of SIRIDI SAI BABA,in btm lay out there is a beautiful temple of baba, tapu offers
service there,she used to take them for prayer and all devotees were asked to prey for Debabrata.
PRAY worked. Debabrata got cured ,it is a miracle, blessings of baba.
People forget things very easily,they also forgotten this temple, these people who prayed for them,now a
days they goes to Siridi to offer prayers and for medical check up to mumbai.
We went last to Calcutta during Soma's marriage [she is the youngest sister of tapu],the marriage was organized
at Madhyamgram where Ruma and Ratna stays,for their own convenient.
I was not too keen to go, for the simple reason being i have to stay at Ruma's house, for duty sake
had to go and most of the time of two marriage days had to stay at Ruma's house though the actual function took place
in a marriage hall.
The way Ruma treated us is memorable,hole life myself and Guni will remember ,cant say about Tapu
as her paision and tolerance is exceptional.
In life'' never'' is a word not to be utter.
We had ask for a lone to Ruma during guni's trip to America.
Till date we could not return the amount.
Is this call destiny!!!!!!!!!!!!
Time does not spare any one, we are bound to pay prices for our sin sooner or letter.
some time we comes out of it , times we can't............................
............
RUMA
............
Ruma no 3 amongst their 4 sisters
their father died in an accident when they were too young ,the last one was 3 years old and the gap between sisters
15 months to 2 years.
Since Her father was a railway employee her mother could manage to get a job with in her capacity,these 4 girls
learned to manage themselves from their childhood.
Tapu was the elder one but she was too simple ,other three were just opposite,these three used to run the hole show.
I am also from the same locality,that time Birati was too small a place,population was very less compared to days
crowd hence we knew each other some extent.
I came to Madras for livelihood, during one of my trip to Calcutta liked Tapu, proposed , after two years married.
I had a rented house at Mackies garden near thousand lights, i made it a point to stay on my
own to have my own arrangements specially food.
After marriage Tapu stepped in the same house,it was a small, one bedroom hall with attach bathroom.
It was OK for a couple of our strength.
After one and half year of my marriage my daughter came,she was born in Calcutta under my mother in lows
care.
As the company where I was working became seek,those days had huge financial crisis hence shortage of man power.
could not be present during delivery time,went to Calcutta to bring them when Guni was 6 months old.
It was very difficult for Tapu to manage three of us as from her childhood she was some what easy going type,
she was away from domestic responsibility's.
That's when Ruma came in picture.
She is a very head working girl and through about domestic affairs,with in no time she became the manager
of my family,she used to handle everything and Tapu was like a happy free bird.
Her first two trip was short,there after Madras was her home,some times she used to go to Calcutta to see her
mother and sisters.
Every one was worried that no alliance was coming forward for Ruma.
Ruma became Tapu's responsibility,she kept trying for a suitable alliance and did everything possible . finally one of her friend Gouri
came to her rescue and introduced her cousin brother who was working in an engineering farm at Hyderabad
but actually from Calcutta[ kharda].
After few meeting marriage got fixed and they were married in Birati and hole marriage expenses was borned
by Tapu,it was a big amount she spent as the arrangement was lavish.
Once marriage got fixed she turned out to be my enemy,honestly I never in my distant
dream thought of having any relationship with her after marriage, basically I am a very choosy person, that is what I am.
i preferred to stay away from her as much as possible.
Don't know why she always had a tendency to defeat us,her mission is some how to pull
us down and go on top of us in all aspect,she copy every inch of our life style
and try's to archive whatever we have .
Some times i fill this is one kind of disease,
other wise the amount of support she got from tapu,no one would have imagined to harm us but that is the life all about.
after few months of her marriage Debabrato got transferred to Delhi,because of tapu's
insistence
I visited them once during my trip to ITC Delhi,so happened Shibu also accompanied me as
he was posted there.
Ruma had her son when they were in delhi,though delivery took place at calcutta.
Debabrato got transferred to calcutta,after coming calcutta they flourished and on the other hand my down fall started.
ITC closed export division unexpectedly , after 6 months from the closer
I could manage to get a job at Bangalore but Tapu had to stay back at Madras for Guni's education,to maintain
two establishments we went virtually out of gear ,lot of curtails and sacrifices we had to under go.
we used to meet in a month once, either i used to go or they used to come.
Ruma's son has some eye problem from birth,I was told by tapu that ruma came with her family to show her son
at sankar netralaya [eye hospital],at that point of time topu could not offer any financial assistance to her because of our unstable situation as ourselves were at stake.
Ruma was very upset with Tapu,she expected her to take care her son's medical expenses,possible they also were
weak financially but tapu was more concerned about our uncertain future and what ever saving she had preferred
to preserve for rainy days.
Even now also Ruma refers that incident when ever finds an opportunity.
There is no point of degrading or criticize any one but bottom of my heart I knew Ruma always had has a
garage on tapu,always she is jealous about her.
It is me who always stood for tapu having known that she is always right.
when ever we goes to calcutta always I am forced to go her house as decency demands but every time experienced
some how she projects her well being and financial strength.
At that point of time I Joined a company in Karur.
Tapu and Guni had to stay at Bangalore because of guni's collage ,i used to go
monthly once to give money which was not sufficient,Tapu had to take up tuition's to cover short falls.
during that crisis period
Ruma came with her husband as he developed some complication with his vocal cord.
Tapu had to take them to Vellore hospital and diagnosed as Cancer.
I must say Tapu is out of the world,her heart is so big that she can die for others.during our stay at madras
many people came and stayed in my house for their treatment in Madras,Always her door was open for needy's.
Tapu used to run virtually every day to Vellor hospital with Debabrata and Ruma for communication
with doctors as they were not fluent in English, even other wise,
this process was on more than a month.
Tapu is a great devotee of SIRIDI SAI BABA,in btm lay out there is a beautiful temple of baba, tapu offers
service there,she used to take them for prayer and all devotees were asked to prey for Debabrata.
PRAY worked. Debabrata got cured ,it is a miracle, blessings of baba.
People forget things very easily,they also forgotten this temple, these people who prayed for them,now a
days they goes to Siridi to offer prayers and for medical check up to mumbai.
We went last to Calcutta during Soma's marriage [she is the youngest sister of tapu],the marriage was organized
at Madhyamgram where Ruma and Ratna stays,for their own convenient.
I was not too keen to go, for the simple reason being i have to stay at Ruma's house, for duty sake
had to go and most of the time of two marriage days had to stay at Ruma's house though the actual function took place
in a marriage hall.
The way Ruma treated us is memorable,hole life myself and Guni will remember ,cant say about Tapu
as her paision and tolerance is exceptional.
In life'' never'' is a word not to be utter.
We had ask for a lone to Ruma during guni's trip to America.
Till date we could not return the amount.
Is this call destiny!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, October 22, 2009
THEY ARE MY RELATIVES
This afternoon during lunch time Tapu told she has to go to Calcutta as her mother will have cataract operation.
i can't understand the logic,i tried my best to serve for this family when ever situation demanded,never thought
about gain.
today we are in a situation where helping people is distant dream.
In past there were referent kind of helps and people used to count on them
In to days world hole scenario has changed,people only understand only one help ,that is
monetary and without that nothing exists.
From the day one they have used her an weapon, all cunning sisters always
planed for their welfare at her cost,I was not wise enough to handle financial matters,her sisters took that advantage
and used Tapu,she was a tool for them.
hole Birati knows about her contribution towards her family.
Have no regret for past, I some what understood the reality of life.but she didn't .
she is not realizing the heard truth of life,she has a tendency to ignore and carry forward attitude.
she wants to go without money not realizing neither any one will care for her nor will pay due respect.
The time we went to Soma's[that is the last we went to Calcutta]marriage,the amount of insult and disrespect
Ruma and her husband showered on us is unforgettable and the simple reason behind that behavior was they knew
that we are in to finical crises.
I don't know what to do! don't know how to stop her going to Calcutta alone.
i can't understand the logic,i tried my best to serve for this family when ever situation demanded,never thought
about gain.
today we are in a situation where helping people is distant dream.
In past there were referent kind of helps and people used to count on them
In to days world hole scenario has changed,people only understand only one help ,that is
monetary and without that nothing exists.
From the day one they have used her an weapon, all cunning sisters always
planed for their welfare at her cost,I was not wise enough to handle financial matters,her sisters took that advantage
and used Tapu,she was a tool for them.
hole Birati knows about her contribution towards her family.
Have no regret for past, I some what understood the reality of life.but she didn't .
she is not realizing the heard truth of life,she has a tendency to ignore and carry forward attitude.
she wants to go without money not realizing neither any one will care for her nor will pay due respect.
The time we went to Soma's[that is the last we went to Calcutta]marriage,the amount of insult and disrespect
Ruma and her husband showered on us is unforgettable and the simple reason behind that behavior was they knew
that we are in to finical crises.
I don't know what to do! don't know how to stop her going to Calcutta alone.
Monday, October 19, 2009
KALI PUJA /DEEPAVALI
KALI PUJA / DEEPAVALI
In eastern part of India this festival is worshiped as Kali pooja, other part of India celebrate as Deepavali.
Festival of light, win over darkness.
In our family this festival is not celebrated with light, we don't light our house,from the childhood we ware
told that some one of the family died in this day and there after no one enjoyed this festival,surprisingly
neither me nor any one asked who was he or she who dyed on that day!
Assuming this is old story and stupid faith once lightened our house unfortunately next year same day my
elder uncle dyed!
We never tried there after.
This year Deepavali went very dull for me as well as for Tapu.
mentally very upset, expected Durai will pay Bonus as every body expect some sort of financial assistance
in this festival from the employer,my luck was blank.
Tapu was very upset but I am not,I understood this person very well,his intention to use and extract maximum
possible from me as I am in treble,he knows very well I don't have place to go.
All 3 days were at home,have spoken to guni,that is the only satisfaction.
Guni is also too worried as nothing happening to us,according to her bellow stander students are geting
job but she is not geting, with out anyones knowledge she is going for some chip work to maintain her
lively hood as we can't support financialy.
Without realising Tapu always advising her not to go for those kind of job's but I am keeping silent realising
just to throw advises is not enough,the family don't have capasity to protect their children how they can
advise!
let us accecpet life as it comes as there is no other choice.
In eastern part of India this festival is worshiped as Kali pooja, other part of India celebrate as Deepavali.
Festival of light, win over darkness.
In our family this festival is not celebrated with light, we don't light our house,from the childhood we ware
told that some one of the family died in this day and there after no one enjoyed this festival,surprisingly
neither me nor any one asked who was he or she who dyed on that day!
Assuming this is old story and stupid faith once lightened our house unfortunately next year same day my
elder uncle dyed!
We never tried there after.
This year Deepavali went very dull for me as well as for Tapu.
mentally very upset, expected Durai will pay Bonus as every body expect some sort of financial assistance
in this festival from the employer,my luck was blank.
Tapu was very upset but I am not,I understood this person very well,his intention to use and extract maximum
possible from me as I am in treble,he knows very well I don't have place to go.
All 3 days were at home,have spoken to guni,that is the only satisfaction.
Guni is also too worried as nothing happening to us,according to her bellow stander students are geting
job but she is not geting, with out anyones knowledge she is going for some chip work to maintain her
lively hood as we can't support financialy.
Without realising Tapu always advising her not to go for those kind of job's but I am keeping silent realising
just to throw advises is not enough,the family don't have capasity to protect their children how they can
advise!
let us accecpet life as it comes as there is no other choice.
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Aamar Kahini
05/11/09
In spite of my all efforts nothing is working,times it appear things are about to fall
in place but in reality nothing is happening,things are moving out of hands just like
that,can't understand what to do,so much pressure ,some times tearing me apart.
we are holding a stock for last 2months, which is not moving,many are seems to be interested but in reality net result is Zero.
I don't know why god punishing me so much,when i will be free from my sin.
Am i the only person around who committed mistakes or sin !
very up set,I can't meet him other wise i would have asked.
In spite of my all efforts nothing is working,times it appear things are about to fall
in place but in reality nothing is happening,things are moving out of hands just like
that,can't understand what to do,so much pressure ,some times tearing me apart.
we are holding a stock for last 2months, which is not moving,many are seems to be interested but in reality net result is Zero.
I don't know why god punishing me so much,when i will be free from my sin.
Am i the only person around who committed mistakes or sin !
very up set,I can't meet him other wise i would have asked.
I SHOULD DO SOMTHING FOR.......................
MAA..............
Some deference took place in past with Tapu,I personally believe such things happens in a family where under one
roof so many are there,my uncle,aunts and their children plus my brothers and sister in lows .
My mother always very soft,she never used to fight with any one but by nature she is so calm that some times
to avoid conflict she will try to hide the truth or she will not handle things strongly.
by nature she always prefers to die down on its own but in reality that policy does not work always.
One of my aunt is just opposite. I don't want to indulge or measure their behavior,what i know she was the key to
spoil our relationship,she uttered those words which offended me as well as tapu.my mother's fault was she did not
object to her comments.
let it be what ever it may,to day personally don't have any grievances on the contrary i believe we all are human being
and in today's world deference's are bound to be their.
Now a days when i speak to my Mother I realizes she has gone too old,as elder son I should go and see her and in case
some medication is required I should arrange for that.
My situation is such that i am counting even single penny,any way , prey to almighty to hive me strength to overcome
such situation so that i can perform my duty's.
CHANDAN.................
During my bad period his mother gave me shelter and I have not forgotten that favor.
unfortunately I am been cornered to day by circumstances, cant do things which I fill as duty.
During my stay at barrackpur Chandan was brother cum friend,we spent lot of good time together.
though later stage because of jealousy he stoned me but i guess that happens,we are human beings,we don't have
lion hearts.
He is not doing well,because of insecurity he stayed away from marriage.
I must do something for him in near future.
Some deference took place in past with Tapu,I personally believe such things happens in a family where under one
roof so many are there,my uncle,aunts and their children plus my brothers and sister in lows .
My mother always very soft,she never used to fight with any one but by nature she is so calm that some times
to avoid conflict she will try to hide the truth or she will not handle things strongly.
by nature she always prefers to die down on its own but in reality that policy does not work always.
One of my aunt is just opposite. I don't want to indulge or measure their behavior,what i know she was the key to
spoil our relationship,she uttered those words which offended me as well as tapu.my mother's fault was she did not
object to her comments.
let it be what ever it may,to day personally don't have any grievances on the contrary i believe we all are human being
and in today's world deference's are bound to be their.
Now a days when i speak to my Mother I realizes she has gone too old,as elder son I should go and see her and in case
some medication is required I should arrange for that.
My situation is such that i am counting even single penny,any way , prey to almighty to hive me strength to overcome
such situation so that i can perform my duty's.
CHANDAN.................
During my bad period his mother gave me shelter and I have not forgotten that favor.
unfortunately I am been cornered to day by circumstances, cant do things which I fill as duty.
During my stay at barrackpur Chandan was brother cum friend,we spent lot of good time together.
though later stage because of jealousy he stoned me but i guess that happens,we are human beings,we don't have
lion hearts.
He is not doing well,because of insecurity he stayed away from marriage.
I must do something for him in near future.
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
life...
Can't remember when I was happy and wholeheartedly enjoyed my success.
forgotten to dream years now, not finding any meaning of life,frostation is so much in life that day and night
leaving with anxiety and worries.
there is no future, don't know what will happen tomorrow,how we will pull our life.
We are suffering here and Guni in America.
Guni is working places where Indian girls never thinks to work,that too in night shifts, whose father is not capable what she
would do! life does not wait or understand fillings,it has to go on and on.
In working places also failure after failure,giving 100% but result is zero,obviously it is not 100% other wise it
would have been succeeded, at least logic that says but I don't find a way or scope for improvisation.
What should I do,where should I go ?
From to morrow Dipavali starts,there are lots of financial commitments ,can't see Durai face to face,my conscious
is killing me,I hold myself responsible for goods are not being sold,no proper buyer,for last 45 days no sell.
Durai suppose to pay bonus and depending a lot on sales but I don't find any costumer who will come for buying
before Dipavali.
loosing interest in leaving,this kind of leaving does not make any seance but scared of suffering for unnatural death.
my father used to sing a song -when time is over come with egress and kindness.
forgotten to dream years now, not finding any meaning of life,frostation is so much in life that day and night
leaving with anxiety and worries.
there is no future, don't know what will happen tomorrow,how we will pull our life.
We are suffering here and Guni in America.
Guni is working places where Indian girls never thinks to work,that too in night shifts, whose father is not capable what she
would do! life does not wait or understand fillings,it has to go on and on.
In working places also failure after failure,giving 100% but result is zero,obviously it is not 100% other wise it
would have been succeeded, at least logic that says but I don't find a way or scope for improvisation.
What should I do,where should I go ?
From to morrow Dipavali starts,there are lots of financial commitments ,can't see Durai face to face,my conscious
is killing me,I hold myself responsible for goods are not being sold,no proper buyer,for last 45 days no sell.
Durai suppose to pay bonus and depending a lot on sales but I don't find any costumer who will come for buying
before Dipavali.
loosing interest in leaving,this kind of leaving does not make any seance but scared of suffering for unnatural death.
my father used to sing a song -when time is over come with egress and kindness.
SHIB SANKAR SAHA (SIBU)
SIBU.........
We know each other from child hood,he was elder than me by 3 years.we are from the same locality.
he was little bulky from child hood itself,his form reflected in his attitudes too.though he was not a wrestler but
his activity's and approach was of wrestler like.
he became close to me all in a sudden, of course because of his interest , he used to come every afternoon in my room,from that room's windows Kajol's(a girl from next house)house was with in 10ft ,all girls used to gather
there for chit chat in the after noon.
Sibu had an affair with kaJol.
Nither I was interested nor he said me in detail anything about their relationship.
He got selected for Indian air force job and for training left for madras.
once in a year he used to come for a month or so but interaction was not that cordial.
After 4/5 years i got a job and after working 1 year in calcutta i was transferred to madras.
shibu was posted in madras and that is when we were close to each other broadly.
those days we were bachelors,he used to stay in IAFcamp and i took a single bedroom flat,we used to meet almost every
week end,either he used to come or i used to go.
after party/ drinks we used to lay down on the IAF runway ,those days are unforgettable.
we used to discuss all about gone by days,those days I came to knew more about his relationship with Kajol,
how deep rooted was his love life,their rise and foll.
how he was ditched by her etc etc.
Don't know why ,I find most of the girls in our time were very thoughtful ,they used to fall in to a relation with a guy almost of same age having known that this is just time pass +,in Bengal LOVE is like an integral part of youth.
hardly one can say (e respective of gender)they did not have premarital relationship.
Sibu's colleagues became friendlily with me .
Shib is very fond of touring and going places though I don't have interest but went with him to few a places.
like Nagarjun sagar dam,Salargaung museum,Birla temple.
i used to go very often to Hyderabad, shibu and his friends came and stayed with me to see places,those day's i used to stay at tajmahal hotel at abids circle,Hyderabad.
after one year Shibu got married and could managed to get a quoter, after six months the lady came in madras.
I used go often to his house.
Once i suffered from jaundice, knowing that shbu came and took me to his place,I stayed there for almost a week,
during my stay they killed a dear and meet was shared to friends and family's,unfortunately I could not join
the fest.
shibu used to come with his wife some time but in comparison I was regular visitor in his house even
After my marriage me and tapu went to his place in many occasions.
he had a son while we were in madras,his wife came for delivery at calcutta and
went back.
Shibu got transferred to Delhi .
When ever I went to delhi for official work I used to stey in his house though ITC had a guest house facility.
After i left ITC there were no contact,some time we used to meet in Calcutta during our yearly holidays.
Now he is retired,when I went last met him ,he is leaving his life in his own way which a person like me will never wish to lead,he is enjoying his retired life at this moment.
We know each other from child hood,he was elder than me by 3 years.we are from the same locality.
he was little bulky from child hood itself,his form reflected in his attitudes too.though he was not a wrestler but
his activity's and approach was of wrestler like.
he became close to me all in a sudden, of course because of his interest , he used to come every afternoon in my room,from that room's windows Kajol's(a girl from next house)house was with in 10ft ,all girls used to gather
there for chit chat in the after noon.
Sibu had an affair with kaJol.
Nither I was interested nor he said me in detail anything about their relationship.
He got selected for Indian air force job and for training left for madras.
once in a year he used to come for a month or so but interaction was not that cordial.
After 4/5 years i got a job and after working 1 year in calcutta i was transferred to madras.
shibu was posted in madras and that is when we were close to each other broadly.
those days we were bachelors,he used to stay in IAFcamp and i took a single bedroom flat,we used to meet almost every
week end,either he used to come or i used to go.
after party/ drinks we used to lay down on the IAF runway ,those days are unforgettable.
we used to discuss all about gone by days,those days I came to knew more about his relationship with Kajol,
how deep rooted was his love life,their rise and foll.
how he was ditched by her etc etc.
Don't know why ,I find most of the girls in our time were very thoughtful ,they used to fall in to a relation with a guy almost of same age having known that this is just time pass +,in Bengal LOVE is like an integral part of youth.
hardly one can say (e respective of gender)they did not have premarital relationship.
Sibu's colleagues became friendlily with me .
Shib is very fond of touring and going places though I don't have interest but went with him to few a places.
like Nagarjun sagar dam,Salargaung museum,Birla temple.
i used to go very often to Hyderabad, shibu and his friends came and stayed with me to see places,those day's i used to stay at tajmahal hotel at abids circle,Hyderabad.
after one year Shibu got married and could managed to get a quoter, after six months the lady came in madras.
I used go often to his house.
Once i suffered from jaundice, knowing that shbu came and took me to his place,I stayed there for almost a week,
during my stay they killed a dear and meet was shared to friends and family's,unfortunately I could not join
the fest.
shibu used to come with his wife some time but in comparison I was regular visitor in his house even
After my marriage me and tapu went to his place in many occasions.
he had a son while we were in madras,his wife came for delivery at calcutta and
went back.
Shibu got transferred to Delhi .
When ever I went to delhi for official work I used to stey in his house though ITC had a guest house facility.
After i left ITC there were no contact,some time we used to meet in Calcutta during our yearly holidays.
Now he is retired,when I went last met him ,he is leaving his life in his own way which a person like me will never wish to lead,he is enjoying his retired life at this moment.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Thursday, October 8, 2009
MONJU DAS.
Manju Das.
Manju's elder sister used to stay in birati.
her elder brother was a CPM party leader and stationed at nager bazer 10 kms from birati,
manju along her mother and younger sister used to stay at Hali sahar ,very far of place from Birati,her house
from railway station 40 kms,sombal pur.
Her sisters house was very close to the sweet cum tea stall [ramesh's sweet stall]where we used to sit,one portion
of the building on the second floor facing main road/sweet stall.
I sow he first when she came to buy sweet on her way to her sister's house,I liked her at the first glance without
knowing she will appear some where very near to my address and would be able to see her when ever she is
in birati.
During her that visit we sow each other and after 15 days she left almost for a month,I thought it's over
but again she re surfaced and the relation took it's shape,we started talking.
we could see each other may be in a month once but we used to write letters regularly and that system worked out
well her family members knew about our friendship.
IT was a co incident that at that point of time political change over took place in west bengal and it turned out to be an ugly power straggle ,we were known as CPM supporters,congress came in power,they started beating and killing all CPM active supporters, police was just a spectator,most of CPM supporter had to leave
their respective place,I too left birati and taken shelter at barrackpur in my aunt's house,she had 8 children,my accommodation was not a great problem also I had a liking for that place,i had many friend's there.
I was getting ready for graduation, my father used to come to see me in a month once,mostly to give pocket mony and of course to check my well being too.
I used to study in Motijeel college in dum dum,1st two exams went well,one boy named Noila sow me in the college
and informed my presence in the college to birati congress supporters,i knew his activities before itself,I understood
the moment he sow me I knew that is the end of my exam .
I did not go to moti jheel college there after.
there were a huge vacuum in my life at that point of time and at that time Manju's presence was swarthy, she used to come in my unit's
house and became very Friendly with my cousin's,i also used to go to her house and her relatives knew me well,Barrackpur was closer to halisahar than Birati,her house was in a village like place,from main road
one has to walk through mud road with both side paddy field,while walking one can smell row paddy smell,
For bath there were a big pond where most of the people from that area used to come for bath,i too went twice.
During the visits I met one of her relative who was manjus younger brothers brother in low,who was staying
in raniganz a coalfield belt,manju asked him to arrange a job for me,I was told this man arranged job for her
brother too.
Almost every forth night we used to meet either in barrackpur or in hali sahar,I even stayed in her house many a times,
her mother and sister liked me too,one of her sister in low was very closed to me,she told once Manju had a close
relation with a boy but the crack came because he was effected by T.B. initially it was shocking to me but I took
it lightly and ignored,possible at that point of time I was looking for a friend as i was home less.
After almost a year with some poetical influence i came back to Birati.
it was not smooth,1st time Viswanath - Soti's brother created problem and after lot of humiliation had to go back, on 2Nd attempt could managed to stay,many known faces were killed or bitten very badly, there were many still out of place.
got adjusted with the situation slowly.
I found a change ,our group have moved to a new tea stall,close to railway station.
After coming to Birati i stopped going to Hilisahar instead Manju used to come regularly.
things were going smoothly but all in a sudden she stopped coming.
I could not understand the reason , even to day it is a Misery to me ,of course i could have asked and got information
from her sister's house or could have gone to halisahar to know the matter but due to Eggo problem or sentiment
reason I did not do that.
After 6 months one day after noon rupak came to my house saying Manju and sister of her sisterinlow is calling
me at her sister's house, on reaching with out giving any reference they were talking some erelavent things,some patch up,
marriage etc etc,to me everything was out of context,I am not that guy to get charged up with silly proposals.
I left their house saying- I CAN'T.exactly this is the word i used that day before leaving.
After that day we met only once when Manju came to show her daughter on the mid road it self,till date i could
not understand what was the motive behind that act.
Manju's elder sister used to stay in birati.
her elder brother was a CPM party leader and stationed at nager bazer 10 kms from birati,
manju along her mother and younger sister used to stay at Hali sahar ,very far of place from Birati,her house
from railway station 40 kms,sombal pur.
Her sisters house was very close to the sweet cum tea stall [ramesh's sweet stall]where we used to sit,one portion
of the building on the second floor facing main road/sweet stall.
I sow he first when she came to buy sweet on her way to her sister's house,I liked her at the first glance without
knowing she will appear some where very near to my address and would be able to see her when ever she is
in birati.
During her that visit we sow each other and after 15 days she left almost for a month,I thought it's over
but again she re surfaced and the relation took it's shape,we started talking.
we could see each other may be in a month once but we used to write letters regularly and that system worked out
well her family members knew about our friendship.
IT was a co incident that at that point of time political change over took place in west bengal and it turned out to be an ugly power straggle ,we were known as CPM supporters,congress came in power,they started beating and killing all CPM active supporters, police was just a spectator,most of CPM supporter had to leave
their respective place,I too left birati and taken shelter at barrackpur in my aunt's house,she had 8 children,my accommodation was not a great problem also I had a liking for that place,i had many friend's there.
I was getting ready for graduation, my father used to come to see me in a month once,mostly to give pocket mony and of course to check my well being too.
I used to study in Motijeel college in dum dum,1st two exams went well,one boy named Noila sow me in the college
and informed my presence in the college to birati congress supporters,i knew his activities before itself,I understood
the moment he sow me I knew that is the end of my exam .
I did not go to moti jheel college there after.
there were a huge vacuum in my life at that point of time and at that time Manju's presence was swarthy, she used to come in my unit's
house and became very Friendly with my cousin's,i also used to go to her house and her relatives knew me well,Barrackpur was closer to halisahar than Birati,her house was in a village like place,from main road
one has to walk through mud road with both side paddy field,while walking one can smell row paddy smell,
For bath there were a big pond where most of the people from that area used to come for bath,i too went twice.
During the visits I met one of her relative who was manjus younger brothers brother in low,who was staying
in raniganz a coalfield belt,manju asked him to arrange a job for me,I was told this man arranged job for her
brother too.
Almost every forth night we used to meet either in barrackpur or in hali sahar,I even stayed in her house many a times,
her mother and sister liked me too,one of her sister in low was very closed to me,she told once Manju had a close
relation with a boy but the crack came because he was effected by T.B. initially it was shocking to me but I took
it lightly and ignored,possible at that point of time I was looking for a friend as i was home less.
After almost a year with some poetical influence i came back to Birati.
it was not smooth,1st time Viswanath - Soti's brother created problem and after lot of humiliation had to go back, on 2Nd attempt could managed to stay,many known faces were killed or bitten very badly, there were many still out of place.
got adjusted with the situation slowly.
I found a change ,our group have moved to a new tea stall,close to railway station.
After coming to Birati i stopped going to Hilisahar instead Manju used to come regularly.
things were going smoothly but all in a sudden she stopped coming.
I could not understand the reason , even to day it is a Misery to me ,of course i could have asked and got information
from her sister's house or could have gone to halisahar to know the matter but due to Eggo problem or sentiment
reason I did not do that.
After 6 months one day after noon rupak came to my house saying Manju and sister of her sisterinlow is calling
me at her sister's house, on reaching with out giving any reference they were talking some erelavent things,some patch up,
marriage etc etc,to me everything was out of context,I am not that guy to get charged up with silly proposals.
I left their house saying- I CAN'T.exactly this is the word i used that day before leaving.
After that day we met only once when Manju came to show her daughter on the mid road it self,till date i could
not understand what was the motive behind that act.
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
MY FRIENDS....
RUPAK KARMAKAR.
Rupak was a guy who's life style was peculiar.
My father was very upset with him, by seeing his face he used to get irritated,not only my father there were many .
His heir style and dress culture was artificial.
his family business was jewelery,he was around Abu too as most of Abu's purchases Rupak used to take care,for that
matter we friends also used to take his help for purchase as he knew from where what to pick.
He was school dropout but he used to act as if he is too learned and rich,he had a 3rd class railway season ticket from
Birati to sialdha[calcutta] and almost every evening he used to go to calcutta and that too in 1st class compartment
and used to return by last train[12 night].
No one knew his activities ,only morning and sun day's he kept of us.
Move was is passion,he sow a move for 14 times! and there were many close to that.
There were nothing common in between us but some how we were friends.
hardly guys used to come to our house as our family culture was deferment then others,my father did not have
money but he had a solid reputation as learned person and as a good family head more over my grand father
was a reputed person in west Bengal,he was a known teacher and many elderly persons in our locality was his
student.
I had an access to go to every ones house ,people used to say i am deferment from others,also some used to say
a bright boy getting spoiled with bad association.
I used to go to rupak's house frequently, even his younger brother Swapan and sister Ampi had a friendly
relation with me.
Rupak never had a real girl friend,though tried many,his act was like joker so girls was not interested in him,so happened one girl was after
me for long time ,her name Ashima,one day i told her about rupak and gave very rosy story, convinced her
to be girl friend of his,with lot of hesitation the poor girl accepted but some reason in budding stage itself the relation
got spoiled.
Rupak was like my spoon in my love affairs!he used to pretend that way ,I also did not object ever,he was happy
with this responsibility but some of the girls used to object his high handling for which i did not pay much attention possible knowing these relations are not permanent.
I must conface that from the very beginning i knew that these relations [ether boys or girls]are passing clouds,they
will not be forever.
after having relation with Anuva the relation with Rupak got stained,we were not in talking tarm there after.
when I went last to calcutta I was told he dyed.
Rupak was a guy who's life style was peculiar.
My father was very upset with him, by seeing his face he used to get irritated,not only my father there were many .
His heir style and dress culture was artificial.
his family business was jewelery,he was around Abu too as most of Abu's purchases Rupak used to take care,for that
matter we friends also used to take his help for purchase as he knew from where what to pick.
He was school dropout but he used to act as if he is too learned and rich,he had a 3rd class railway season ticket from
Birati to sialdha[calcutta] and almost every evening he used to go to calcutta and that too in 1st class compartment
and used to return by last train[12 night].
No one knew his activities ,only morning and sun day's he kept of us.
Move was is passion,he sow a move for 14 times! and there were many close to that.
There were nothing common in between us but some how we were friends.
hardly guys used to come to our house as our family culture was deferment then others,my father did not have
money but he had a solid reputation as learned person and as a good family head more over my grand father
was a reputed person in west Bengal,he was a known teacher and many elderly persons in our locality was his
student.
I had an access to go to every ones house ,people used to say i am deferment from others,also some used to say
a bright boy getting spoiled with bad association.
I used to go to rupak's house frequently, even his younger brother Swapan and sister Ampi had a friendly
relation with me.
Rupak never had a real girl friend,though tried many,his act was like joker so girls was not interested in him,so happened one girl was after
me for long time ,her name Ashima,one day i told her about rupak and gave very rosy story, convinced her
to be girl friend of his,with lot of hesitation the poor girl accepted but some reason in budding stage itself the relation
got spoiled.
Rupak was like my spoon in my love affairs!he used to pretend that way ,I also did not object ever,he was happy
with this responsibility but some of the girls used to object his high handling for which i did not pay much attention possible knowing these relations are not permanent.
I must conface that from the very beginning i knew that these relations [ether boys or girls]are passing clouds,they
will not be forever.
after having relation with Anuva the relation with Rupak got stained,we were not in talking tarm there after.
when I went last to calcutta I was told he dyed.
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
MY FRIENDS.............
ABU.
In this list 1st name comes ASISH GHOSE ROY commonly known as ABU.
He was from a rich family, almost every body knew his grand father and uncle,his father was known
for bad reason,his name was Prithish Ghosh.
he had two child ,one boy and a girl,girls name was Babli,she was younger.
They had huge property all over Birati ,even in Calcutta,they were the richest family in Birati at
that point of time,there were a beautiful fountain statue in front of there house which was relay beautiful
and that was symbolic display of their name and fame.
Abu used to fund for me almost every outing,for all get together he was the source of fund.
He was not good in study's,maybe he was not interested.
One morning we came to now his uncle is no more,he dyed with brain fever,he was suffering from fever
for last 5 days,it was a shock for all,in Birati there were on hospital,no qualified doctor.
his last rite took place in Calcutta were one of his uncle got settled and was an advocate by profession .
After a year or so his grand father also followed.
As there were no head of the family and Abu's father had all wrong habits there were no income or investment
instead- huge expenditure.
His father's activities was their disadvantage,for their lavish livelihood they stared selling lands one after the other.
my First conflict started with Abu when he followed his father's footsteps,a girl was working
in their house from her child hood,now she has blossomed,it was an easy option,he garbed that opportunity.
That period we all are working,only some time during night or sun days we all used to meet,we were told by Abu
due to work pressure he is working even on Sundays but the truth was something else. he hired a house 20 km away
from Birati ,the place is known as madhyamgram.there he kept the girl and impression given to the locality that they are husband and wife.
I started keeping distance with him.
One day his mother called and informed she wants her son to get married and I should accompany him to select
the bride,few brokers were engaged for that job.
We friends one Sunday called Abu and asked for an clarification,he cried ,pleaded and did everything to convince us
that she will leave that girl and shall follow his mother's wish.
We started looking girls almost every Sunday,finally we liked a girl and marriage got fixed.
One day I got a call in my office and i was told to rush immediately as there is some problem related to Abu's marriage,I rushed,the complication was- girls family was informed by some people that the boy is married already.
I was given the responsibility to sort out the problem.
It is a huge task, at that age really did not know what is write and what is wrong,only thing I knew i have to solve
the problem and that too in Abu's favor.
Still i remember most of my friends suggested me not to Interfere as the situation is very grave,possible i could be
in the police station or public will tear me off.
I made my mind,evening 7 o'clock i left alone to madhyamgram to sort out the situation.
On reaching to that address found the situation is not better than what my friends predicted,A huge crowed in
front the house,on flash I made my mind and got ready for counter,I entered the house giving an impression
that i am Abu's brother and established the girl is loose carector and set a trap to sqige a boy from well to do family
and they are not married but bluffed the hole locality .
Fortunately things worked,I could manage to convince a large portion of people that what i claimed is true.
With some assurance from leader like people came back to Birati with win win situation.
Explained every thing to Abu's mother and of course to my friends,always i was known as Intelligent but to day
I am the hero.
next two days I did not go to work as I had bigger things to do,going to girl's house to convince saying every thing fabricated and no truth in it,an employee is trying to take undue advantage.
as marriage invitation cards were distributed and because of family prestige issue they agreed to marriage.
TO DAY WHEN I LOOK BACK -I FIND MYSELF GUILTY OF SPOILING TWO GIRLS LIFE BECAUSE OF MY IMMATURITY
AND STUPID SO CALLED FRIENDSHIP,I PREY TO GOD FOR MARSES FOR MY CRIME WHICH I COMMITTED BECAUSE
OF MY IGNORANCE AND IMMATURITY.
I got a transfer to madras short while after his marriage but when ever I went to calcutta found he did not change and
in later stage found he was very close to his father's footsteps.
After coming madras my theory of life completely changed,I made it happened,used to go to calcutta yearly once that
to not more than 10 days but realized our friendship no more exists,we were pool apart.
At one point of time i was told he and his father sold all their properties except their Beautiful house.
After his father's death that house also sold,last when I met he was shifted to a distant place but used to come Birati
to pass time .
When I went last ,came to know he is no more ,died in heart attack.
May his sole leave in peace.
In this list 1st name comes ASISH GHOSE ROY commonly known as ABU.
He was from a rich family, almost every body knew his grand father and uncle,his father was known
for bad reason,his name was Prithish Ghosh.
he had two child ,one boy and a girl,girls name was Babli,she was younger.
They had huge property all over Birati ,even in Calcutta,they were the richest family in Birati at
that point of time,there were a beautiful fountain statue in front of there house which was relay beautiful
and that was symbolic display of their name and fame.
Abu used to fund for me almost every outing,for all get together he was the source of fund.
He was not good in study's,maybe he was not interested.
One morning we came to now his uncle is no more,he dyed with brain fever,he was suffering from fever
for last 5 days,it was a shock for all,in Birati there were on hospital,no qualified doctor.
his last rite took place in Calcutta were one of his uncle got settled and was an advocate by profession .
After a year or so his grand father also followed.
As there were no head of the family and Abu's father had all wrong habits there were no income or investment
instead- huge expenditure.
His father's activities was their disadvantage,for their lavish livelihood they stared selling lands one after the other.
my First conflict started with Abu when he followed his father's footsteps,a girl was working
in their house from her child hood,now she has blossomed,it was an easy option,he garbed that opportunity.
That period we all are working,only some time during night or sun days we all used to meet,we were told by Abu
due to work pressure he is working even on Sundays but the truth was something else. he hired a house 20 km away
from Birati ,the place is known as madhyamgram.there he kept the girl and impression given to the locality that they are husband and wife.
I started keeping distance with him.
One day his mother called and informed she wants her son to get married and I should accompany him to select
the bride,few brokers were engaged for that job.
We friends one Sunday called Abu and asked for an clarification,he cried ,pleaded and did everything to convince us
that she will leave that girl and shall follow his mother's wish.
We started looking girls almost every Sunday,finally we liked a girl and marriage got fixed.
One day I got a call in my office and i was told to rush immediately as there is some problem related to Abu's marriage,I rushed,the complication was- girls family was informed by some people that the boy is married already.
I was given the responsibility to sort out the problem.
It is a huge task, at that age really did not know what is write and what is wrong,only thing I knew i have to solve
the problem and that too in Abu's favor.
Still i remember most of my friends suggested me not to Interfere as the situation is very grave,possible i could be
in the police station or public will tear me off.
I made my mind,evening 7 o'clock i left alone to madhyamgram to sort out the situation.
On reaching to that address found the situation is not better than what my friends predicted,A huge crowed in
front the house,on flash I made my mind and got ready for counter,I entered the house giving an impression
that i am Abu's brother and established the girl is loose carector and set a trap to sqige a boy from well to do family
and they are not married but bluffed the hole locality .
Fortunately things worked,I could manage to convince a large portion of people that what i claimed is true.
With some assurance from leader like people came back to Birati with win win situation.
Explained every thing to Abu's mother and of course to my friends,always i was known as Intelligent but to day
I am the hero.
next two days I did not go to work as I had bigger things to do,going to girl's house to convince saying every thing fabricated and no truth in it,an employee is trying to take undue advantage.
as marriage invitation cards were distributed and because of family prestige issue they agreed to marriage.
TO DAY WHEN I LOOK BACK -I FIND MYSELF GUILTY OF SPOILING TWO GIRLS LIFE BECAUSE OF MY IMMATURITY
AND STUPID SO CALLED FRIENDSHIP,I PREY TO GOD FOR MARSES FOR MY CRIME WHICH I COMMITTED BECAUSE
OF MY IGNORANCE AND IMMATURITY.
I got a transfer to madras short while after his marriage but when ever I went to calcutta found he did not change and
in later stage found he was very close to his father's footsteps.
After coming madras my theory of life completely changed,I made it happened,used to go to calcutta yearly once that
to not more than 10 days but realized our friendship no more exists,we were pool apart.
At one point of time i was told he and his father sold all their properties except their Beautiful house.
After his father's death that house also sold,last when I met he was shifted to a distant place but used to come Birati
to pass time .
When I went last ,came to know he is no more ,died in heart attack.
May his sole leave in peace.
SOTI BOSE
SOTI BOSE
when I am writing this phase of my life have to accept that I did injustice to Soti in great extent without
realizing her suffering because of my playboy attitude.
Possible I was attracted by her little more than previous girls.
I even changed my rout to our gathering place[ramesh's tea stall]just to have a glance /attention.
while girls used to go to school , siting in the tea stall our group used to screen them for selection.
some were successful some were not,for some strange reason I have never faced rejections.
My heart was racing for a nice looking girl,she was SOTI.
slowly and gradually my signal reached to Soti and her acceptance was on her face.
she had 4 powerful brothers and they were famous for their mussel.
slowly we were moving to each other but problem was her brothers,she was never free and had always
a fear.
her friends used to inter act between us .
thinks were not smooth,since we liked each other in spite of difficulty life was great.
on her way to school looking and laughing each other or passing some comments was enough to satisfied
ourselves,days were passing by.
I observed one Girikesh was trying to become close to me,he started coming regularly and became some what
close to me,we started discussing everything.
he got the news of my relationship with Soti.
he used to say how he is close to her family and younger brother,I used to think he is my welwisher and on that
that faith I never tryed to hide my inner filling.
One day on return from my college Soti's younger brother cordoned me with his group and threatened me saying
if I don't change my activity consequence will be very bad as he will inform all his brothers.
They stopped Soti's schooling ,it was impossible to meet her,her friends were not allowed to meet her,when ever
she used to come out she had people around to gaurd her.
I knew this is a handi work of girikesh,I was very furius,in never die setuation I told girikesh that we still maintain
relationship and we are in touch.
That massage added fire to fuale,she was bitten and torchered like strey dog every day to know the truth and
to under stand the depth of our relationship.
one day i was called by her brothers,all my friends wanted to join with me but I decided to go alone to minimize
tension.
I was alone ,they were four,they started talking gently but when I confirmed saying I love Soti, things changed,
all of them attacked me like dogs,I was bitten very badly to bleed in and out,they left me with a warning if i
trys to meet Soti they will kill both of us.
I came with wound and was bed ridden for 3 days but did not say anyone what actuly happened.
I did not meet Soti there after keeping in mind her well being.
After 2 month she was married to a defence personal.
when I am writing this phase of my life have to accept that I did injustice to Soti in great extent without
realizing her suffering because of my playboy attitude.
Possible I was attracted by her little more than previous girls.
I even changed my rout to our gathering place[ramesh's tea stall]just to have a glance /attention.
while girls used to go to school , siting in the tea stall our group used to screen them for selection.
some were successful some were not,for some strange reason I have never faced rejections.
My heart was racing for a nice looking girl,she was SOTI.
slowly and gradually my signal reached to Soti and her acceptance was on her face.
she had 4 powerful brothers and they were famous for their mussel.
slowly we were moving to each other but problem was her brothers,she was never free and had always
a fear.
her friends used to inter act between us .
thinks were not smooth,since we liked each other in spite of difficulty life was great.
on her way to school looking and laughing each other or passing some comments was enough to satisfied
ourselves,days were passing by.
I observed one Girikesh was trying to become close to me,he started coming regularly and became some what
close to me,we started discussing everything.
he got the news of my relationship with Soti.
he used to say how he is close to her family and younger brother,I used to think he is my welwisher and on that
that faith I never tryed to hide my inner filling.
One day on return from my college Soti's younger brother cordoned me with his group and threatened me saying
if I don't change my activity consequence will be very bad as he will inform all his brothers.
They stopped Soti's schooling ,it was impossible to meet her,her friends were not allowed to meet her,when ever
she used to come out she had people around to gaurd her.
I knew this is a handi work of girikesh,I was very furius,in never die setuation I told girikesh that we still maintain
relationship and we are in touch.
That massage added fire to fuale,she was bitten and torchered like strey dog every day to know the truth and
to under stand the depth of our relationship.
one day i was called by her brothers,all my friends wanted to join with me but I decided to go alone to minimize
tension.
I was alone ,they were four,they started talking gently but when I confirmed saying I love Soti, things changed,
all of them attacked me like dogs,I was bitten very badly to bleed in and out,they left me with a warning if i
trys to meet Soti they will kill both of us.
I came with wound and was bed ridden for 3 days but did not say anyone what actuly happened.
I did not meet Soti there after keeping in mind her well being.
After 2 month she was married to a defence personal.
Dipti palit
DIPTI PALIT.
When I think to day I laugh .
I used to go barrackpur very often at my aunt's place,reason being her children were of my age,deference between
them were one to one and half years.they are eight in numbers.Chandan ,Khuku and Mala was very close to me,even
their friends.
One late evening after playing me and chandan came house to get fresh,khuku and her friends were getting ready
for final touch to go to attend a marriage,since there were only 3 rooms were occupied by them.
I was roaming here and there with a cup of tea.
All in sudden they realized one of their friend's shoes are missing.
The fellow hidden shoes was my aunt's youngest son Dodul but he was no where seen at that point of time and
ultimately blame fallen on me,in spite of my several pleading no one was in a mood to believe that i have not hidden
pair of shoes and things was about to turn ugly.
Dodul was enjoying this seance and when he realized things are going out of hands he placed shoes in front of them.
the girl who about to loose her name was dipti Palit.
Things settled there for then but a new beginning started.
She was good looking and smart also from a well to do family.
We became close to each other but the problem were the distance,I am staying in Birati and she is in Barracpur.
Those days phones were not aces sable like these days,mobile no one knew about.
sending letters was impossible fearing that may fall in wrong hands.
initially I used to run on and often but considering financial crunch slowly that enthusiasm slowed down and
possible I was no that hard die fellow.
on those days i used to see many of my friends were mad for some one but i was never that type,another
one reason I guess is those days body relation was like dream.possible that is also one reason the attraction
was not at that magnitude.
in later stage we were just friends as we both realized the truth of life.
When I think to day I laugh .
I used to go barrackpur very often at my aunt's place,reason being her children were of my age,deference between
them were one to one and half years.they are eight in numbers.Chandan ,Khuku and Mala was very close to me,even
their friends.
One late evening after playing me and chandan came house to get fresh,khuku and her friends were getting ready
for final touch to go to attend a marriage,since there were only 3 rooms were occupied by them.
I was roaming here and there with a cup of tea.
All in sudden they realized one of their friend's shoes are missing.
The fellow hidden shoes was my aunt's youngest son Dodul but he was no where seen at that point of time and
ultimately blame fallen on me,in spite of my several pleading no one was in a mood to believe that i have not hidden
pair of shoes and things was about to turn ugly.
Dodul was enjoying this seance and when he realized things are going out of hands he placed shoes in front of them.
the girl who about to loose her name was dipti Palit.
Things settled there for then but a new beginning started.
She was good looking and smart also from a well to do family.
We became close to each other but the problem were the distance,I am staying in Birati and she is in Barracpur.
Those days phones were not aces sable like these days,mobile no one knew about.
sending letters was impossible fearing that may fall in wrong hands.
initially I used to run on and often but considering financial crunch slowly that enthusiasm slowed down and
possible I was no that hard die fellow.
on those days i used to see many of my friends were mad for some one but i was never that type,another
one reason I guess is those days body relation was like dream.possible that is also one reason the attraction
was not at that magnitude.
in later stage we were just friends as we both realized the truth of life.
Monday, October 5, 2009
Gouri
GOURI
She was my first girl friend.
may be little elder than me or my be because of her build .
This relationship started when I was in school,it just happened.
Most of my friends had their girl friends,I should not lack behind that kind of childish mentality also worked behind this relation.
They came to our place as tenant,opposite to our house,she was more keen to develop a relationship than me.
She was honest to her approach but I was not.
some how a relation structured but from bottom of my heart I knew there were nothing great or to dream about.
the proportion of a relationship if i talk then it was 80/20.
there were occasions she used to be desperate but never used get proper response from me.
one important incident i still remember-
during durga puja festival we met and went to see durga idols with full group of boys and girls.
so happened -her mother came to know that and became a big issue,she was adamant not to go to
her house as she might be bitten or harassed,some how we convinced and senther,there after she was not
visible,i came to know they have changed house,tryed to locket her but in vain.
so happened my school final result was out and I passed. one day I sow her going with her younger brother, I went
running to give her the good news but she was unmoved,as I was in a vary happy state of mind tryed my best
to convince and peruse,things did not work,she cried and left off.
hunting started to know her address and eventually found her new house but she was not the same, even did not bother to see me,at least that is what she pretended.
after 2 months came to know she got married to a professor and moved to north Bengal .
I must confess this incident did not bother me at all as I knew my stand.
She was my first girl friend.
may be little elder than me or my be because of her build .
This relationship started when I was in school,it just happened.
Most of my friends had their girl friends,I should not lack behind that kind of childish mentality also worked behind this relation.
They came to our place as tenant,opposite to our house,she was more keen to develop a relationship than me.
She was honest to her approach but I was not.
some how a relation structured but from bottom of my heart I knew there were nothing great or to dream about.
the proportion of a relationship if i talk then it was 80/20.
there were occasions she used to be desperate but never used get proper response from me.
one important incident i still remember-
during durga puja festival we met and went to see durga idols with full group of boys and girls.
so happened -her mother came to know that and became a big issue,she was adamant not to go to
her house as she might be bitten or harassed,some how we convinced and senther,there after she was not
visible,i came to know they have changed house,tryed to locket her but in vain.
so happened my school final result was out and I passed. one day I sow her going with her younger brother, I went
running to give her the good news but she was unmoved,as I was in a vary happy state of mind tryed my best
to convince and peruse,things did not work,she cried and left off.
hunting started to know her address and eventually found her new house but she was not the same, even did not bother to see me,at least that is what she pretended.
after 2 months came to know she got married to a professor and moved to north Bengal .
I must confess this incident did not bother me at all as I knew my stand.
Aamar Kahini
Though I had many minus point like-I was not very good looking,not from a wealthy family ,not a brilliant student,
not that polished and well mannered ,still there were something for which girls used to get attracted.
I was known as lover boy,many were jealous and because of this so called quality I had many foes.
I can't claim saying we were Urban boys,on the contrary we were from rural Bengal,from proper city[Calcutta]
30 km away.
The word/act of love was different from these days,we used to exchange our love through letters, occasional
face to face talk that too away from known locality or on the way to school or collage.
we used to go to movies in group,few girls and equal no of boys,that day used to be special, boys used to bare all
expenses.
since our economy was very weak and there wear fear factor for girls that no one should know, this kind of gathering
used to be once in blue moon and we used to memorize this kind event for long time at list till next occasion.
many a time so happened next time did not come,either some one sow and complained to girl's house or for some
reason or the other relations used to break.
some were brave ,they used to look for new partner from next day ,some used to carry for some time with broken
heart but that used be for a short time only.we friends were so active that anyone without pair used to be intolerable.
It was like a status symbol for us.
To day when I look back it looks crazy and funny.
I was brave amongst all.I used to write love letters for all of my group! sounds funny but true.
I was the muster of this subject.
While i was in class 10 I had my 1st crash.her name was Gouri,there after Dipti palit,Sikhapal,Anju ghosh,Roma,
Soti Bose,Manju das,Anuva banerjee.
it is a long list but other than Manju and Anuva rest were like water shades.
not that polished and well mannered ,still there were something for which girls used to get attracted.
I was known as lover boy,many were jealous and because of this so called quality I had many foes.
I can't claim saying we were Urban boys,on the contrary we were from rural Bengal,from proper city[Calcutta]
30 km away.
The word/act of love was different from these days,we used to exchange our love through letters, occasional
face to face talk that too away from known locality or on the way to school or collage.
we used to go to movies in group,few girls and equal no of boys,that day used to be special, boys used to bare all
expenses.
since our economy was very weak and there wear fear factor for girls that no one should know, this kind of gathering
used to be once in blue moon and we used to memorize this kind event for long time at list till next occasion.
many a time so happened next time did not come,either some one sow and complained to girl's house or for some
reason or the other relations used to break.
some were brave ,they used to look for new partner from next day ,some used to carry for some time with broken
heart but that used be for a short time only.we friends were so active that anyone without pair used to be intolerable.
It was like a status symbol for us.
To day when I look back it looks crazy and funny.
I was brave amongst all.I used to write love letters for all of my group! sounds funny but true.
I was the muster of this subject.
While i was in class 10 I had my 1st crash.her name was Gouri,there after Dipti palit,Sikhapal,Anju ghosh,Roma,
Soti Bose,Manju das,Anuva banerjee.
it is a long list but other than Manju and Anuva rest were like water shades.
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Hole day siting almost idle ,these days no sell,people comes just like that with absurd prices which
is not workable in anyway.
I was told this is the pattern of this business,since winter is approaching our product will have beating as
they are meant for summer,though I don't agree .
If i have to run this business then a solid strategy to be worked out,new connections are to be developed.
Money to be spent for promotion,contacts to be build but durai is the person who neither has ethics nor vision.
I don't have money ,otherwise i would have started .
lets see what is stored for me!
is not workable in anyway.
I was told this is the pattern of this business,since winter is approaching our product will have beating as
they are meant for summer,though I don't agree .
If i have to run this business then a solid strategy to be worked out,new connections are to be developed.
Money to be spent for promotion,contacts to be build but durai is the person who neither has ethics nor vision.
I don't have money ,otherwise i would have started .
lets see what is stored for me!
Publish Post
Friday, October 2, 2009
LAKSHMI POOJA
To day is lAKSHMI POOJA.
For Hindu's she is an important goddess , she is the goddess of wealth.
In today's world she is the most powerful.
Indian culture somewhat peculiar,specially Hindus,Hindus festivals celebrated region wise ,example-to days
Lakshmi pooja is limited with only east and some part of north east,rest of Indians region wise will celebrate this
pooja some other day .
One think is common -that is The faith and purpose .
Tapu came yesterday night from Bangalore,sold our maruti 800.
Felt very sad, though did not revail it any body,there is no point to show my own inability and weakness to others.
had a talk with guni just for a while,seems to be happy.
The day she is happy,I am happy too.
For Hindu's she is an important goddess , she is the goddess of wealth.
In today's world she is the most powerful.
Indian culture somewhat peculiar,specially Hindus,Hindus festivals celebrated region wise ,example-to days
Lakshmi pooja is limited with only east and some part of north east,rest of Indians region wise will celebrate this
pooja some other day .
One think is common -that is The faith and purpose .
Tapu came yesterday night from Bangalore,sold our maruti 800.
Felt very sad, though did not revail it any body,there is no point to show my own inability and weakness to others.
had a talk with guni just for a while,seems to be happy.
The day she is happy,I am happy too.
Thursday, October 1, 2009
MR.GANDHI'S BIRTHDAY
To day Mr.M.C.Gandhi's 140th birth anniversary.
to day is national holy day,High fashions in working,I too joined as being a senior person felt to be present,another
reason Tapu is not at home.
Had a talk this morning and was told she is leaving Bangalore by 11 morning,which means she will be in
Tirupur some time in the late evening.
Had a talk with Guni this morning,seems to be OK but with time and situations she is gaining Maturity and
that reflecting on her talks and approach.
Unless there are any serious issues she will not reveal manageable obstetrical s any more and that is my observations.
This is also true siting here we cant solve any problems of hers but with age I have learned -SHARING AND EXCHANGING views helps us a lot,we can always cross check our decisions , acts and in that process there
is scope of improvisation, corrections also some times solutions comes out of blue.
to day is national holy day,High fashions in working,I too joined as being a senior person felt to be present,another
reason Tapu is not at home.
Had a talk this morning and was told she is leaving Bangalore by 11 morning,which means she will be in
Tirupur some time in the late evening.
Had a talk with Guni this morning,seems to be OK but with time and situations she is gaining Maturity and
that reflecting on her talks and approach.
Unless there are any serious issues she will not reveal manageable obstetrical s any more and that is my observations.
This is also true siting here we cant solve any problems of hers but with age I have learned -SHARING AND EXCHANGING views helps us a lot,we can always cross check our decisions , acts and in that process there
is scope of improvisation, corrections also some times solutions comes out of blue.
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